The Rocking Blog

So at this point, I am looking at three rejections, and still two unknowns. Out of those two unknowns, I am thinking that one is a definite rejection, and the other one I think is not looking that great either. Not necessarily impossible, in my cynical mind, but unlikely, mainly do to the fact that they take so few people.But at this point it looks like I...

I would like to say that I am happy for all of those who have already gotten acceptances. I don't begrudge you at all, I am more jealous then anything. I, like so many other people like cokohlik   , in her recent blog post, am in that wonderful/horrible land of limbo. I am still at one rejection, and four unknowns out of the schools that I applied to....

So I have found a problem in one of my applications that is large enough that should I get rejected from one of my schools, I will not at all be suprised. At this point, I am suprised that they haven't rejected me already considering the problem. And at this point, I feel that it is too late to remedy. Honestly, considering the issue, I am completely...

This post has been taking me a while to write. I am trying to put into words the odd mix of feelings that I have been having over the past few weeks.I am starting to feel a lot like newms's  post  last year at this time of year. I also did not expect anything early. And for the most part I was right to not expect anything early. So far only one rejection. I am trying my best to look at it in the best light here. That it has  been only one  rejection so far. But the waiting ..... oh the waiting. And the silence. It doesn't make me feel very confident.I just hope that all of this waiting pays off in the end. That my homework on which schools to apply to were as a good of a selection as I think that it was. At times I am anxious, nerve wracked, panicking. In other moments I am calm, fine, happy. Looking forward to the future, where I see myself going to grad school. My mind has moments where it is given opportunities to run away with itself in either direction.I question applying to grad school, if just because of what it is doing to my mind, not my ability to get through grad school itself, or my desire to get there. i understand that it is not a decision to rush, that it is a huge finical decision on their part. I just wish that it was easier for everyone involved.

So my first result comes in with not a good start. UChicago lets me know that I have not been accepted to thier program. And they let me know by mail. I feel that it was a bit quick, and a bit impersonal. But not entirely suprising. I feel that might have been my weakest application. A combination of application burnout, and the fact that there were so few comparative people at that school that I wanted to work with compared to other schools that applied to. It also might be the fact that there are numerous other reasons. They mention that there were many applications to my subfield, but is that just them trying to blunt it a bit?But is this me justifying the fact that I did not get into one program so that I have a hope into another program? I hope not.Part of me is being hopeful still, and another part of me is being horribly worried. I don't think I like the idea of the application season starting off this way.And now my serious self doubt is starting to kick in.

So now my applications are all submitted, letters are in, transcripts are in. And it is time to begin waiting.This whole process was a bit trying. Mainly because one of my prof's who was writing me letters submitted them all late, which stressed me out to no end. My whole thing was that while I was grateful that he was doing it in the first place, I d...

So I have to say that the program itself looks good. I really like the research that the professors there are doing. Their website is clean, and pretty and makes it very easy to find the information I want to know, so I don't ask them silly questions. I know that not having a good website doesn't mean that they have a good program, but I sometimes...

I feel like I am going through bipolar moments through this whole application season. I have opened all of my applications. I've sent out GRE scores already to schools. I'll be sending out transcripts this weekend. Finishing up my SoP for my first school. And am sitting down to make sure that I know when what school whats what when.One of the othe...

So I have my third letter of recommendation writer saying that they will do it. This is making me feel better. I was almost ready to say that I should postpone until next year just to get one more letter writer. But I did well in this profs classes, so this makes me feel better. So now I just have to email my letter writers the info that they need.I'v...

So I have been contacting POI's, still waiting to hear back from some. Have my first two rec letters set up, and hoping to get the last one set up soon. This has to be the most stressful part of my application process so far. This is mainly due to the fact that my department is so small, there really aren't that many people to ask for me. But I still have...