So my first result comes in with not a good start. UChicago lets me know that I have not been accepted to thier program. And they let me know by mail. I feel that it was a bit quick, and a bit impersonal. But not entirely suprising. I feel that might have been my weakest application. A combination of application burnout, and the fact that there were so few comparative people at that school that I wanted to work with compared to other schools that applied to. It also might be the fact that there are numerous other reasons. They mention that there were many applications to my subfield, but is that just them trying to blunt it a bit?
But is this me justifying the fact that I did not get into one program so that I have a hope into another program? I hope not.
Part of me is being hopeful still, and another part of me is being horribly worried. I don't think I like the idea of the application season starting off this way.
And now my serious self doubt is starting to kick in.