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I got in. I can hardly believe it. So excited & happy I could just about die.

I really, really, really did not think this would happen. It's early March, and I thought if anybody was going to accept me, or interview me, I would know by now. Then tonight--at 10:23pm, to be exact--the PhD admissions director emailed me with an offer....

I wrote a whole blog entry last night about how much waiting sucks. Well, guess what happened? About 20 minutes later, one of my schools updated my status. And it was not good. And I deleted my entry.


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My mom always tells me this whenever I'm stressing about something. "The worst they/he/she can say is no." And it's true. Yet in the case of PhD applications, it doesn't make me feel any better.

And I've realized that I completely wrap myself up in the fear of failure. I define myself by successes; I've never...

Yesterday it was worrying that I forgot to include an important (though probably irrelevant) award I received on my applications. Today, it's me freaking out about my GRE scores. I *thought* a 730 was good for business programs. Apparently, it's all they care about with the GREs, and being in the 78th percentile means I don't have...

I submitted my applications, and now the fear has really set in. I no longer have any control over the process; it is in the hands of the admissions gods.

I tweaked my personal statement for the umpteenth time, including a final read through by my various reviewers (one professor & family members). I felt generally confident with it, more...