The Rocking Blog

I would like to say that I am happy for all of those who have already gotten acceptances. I don't begrudge you at all, I am more jealous then anything. I, like so many other people like cokohlik   , in her recent blog post, am in that wonderful/horrible land of limbo. I am still at one rejection, and four unknowns out of the schools that I applied to....

This post has been taking me a while to write. I am trying to put into words the odd mix of feelings that I have been having over the past few weeks.I am starting to feel a lot like newms's  post  last year at this time of year. I also did not expect anything early. And for the most part I was right to not expect anything early. So far only one rejection. I am trying my best to look at it in the best light here. That it has  been only one  rejection so far. But the waiting ..... oh the waiting. And the silence. It doesn't make me feel very confident.I just hope that all of this waiting pays off in the end. That my homework on which schools to apply to were as a good of a selection as I think that it was. At times I am anxious, nerve wracked, panicking. In other moments I am calm, fine, happy. Looking forward to the future, where I see myself going to grad school. My mind has moments where it is given opportunities to run away with itself in either direction.I question applying to grad school, if just because of what it is doing to my mind, not my ability to get through grad school itself, or my desire to get there. i understand that it is not a decision to rush, that it is a huge finical decision on their part. I just wish that it was easier for everyone involved.

So now my applications are all submitted, letters are in, transcripts are in. And it is time to begin waiting.This whole process was a bit trying. Mainly because one of my prof's who was writing me letters submitted them all late, which stressed me out to no end. My whole thing was that while I was grateful that he was doing it in the first place, I d...

So I have to say that the program itself looks good. I really like the research that the professors there are doing. Their website is clean, and pretty and makes it very easy to find the information I want to know, so I don't ask them silly questions. I know that not having a good website doesn't mean that they have a good program, but I sometimes...

I feel like I am going through bipolar moments through this whole application season. I have opened all of my applications. I've sent out GRE scores already to schools. I'll be sending out transcripts this weekend. Finishing up my SoP for my first school. And am sitting down to make sure that I know when what school whats what when.One of the othe...

So I have my third letter of recommendation writer saying that they will do it. This is making me feel better. I was almost ready to say that I should postpone until next year just to get one more letter writer. But I did well in this profs classes, so this makes me feel better. So now I just have to email my letter writers the info that they need.I'v...

So I have been contacting POI's, still waiting to hear back from some. Have my first two rec letters set up, and hoping to get the last one set up soon. This has to be the most stressful part of my application process so far. This is mainly due to the fact that my department is so small, there really aren't that many people to ask for me. But I still have...

So right now I am bouncing between the belief that I cannot get into a grad program, and the belief that I can. But you know what, I am going to still be trying this year anyway. Why? Because as people on this site have said it before, you won't really know until you try. You might not apply and keep asking yourself what would have happened if you didn't....