Over this past weekend, I came down with a stomach infection from basically worrying too much about the missing letter of recommendation. This is actually the 3rd time that this has happened. My first time applying for graduate school, I worried myself sick because of the GRE. I became really anxious and my liver started retaining fat deposits (fatty liver). After the GRE was over, I was a lot more calm till April. I started receiving rejection notices because I was unable to produce that 3rd letter of recommendation (I would blame this on myself for getting him the materials late). That time, I came down with a bad stomach infection for a week. I had to go to urgent care and such.
The same Professor said he would write one for me this year since I am reapplying and we had a one on one talk. My last day working with him, he said (in front of his colleagues and other RAs) that he would be writing me a letter. It isn't as glorious as you think. We were just hanging around as a going away "party" and he mentions to me that he will write it.
Now this past weekend, I get sick again and on my birthday. I think writing these blogs gets me even more worried because I realize how little time I have left and it gets me thinking about what I will be doing if he doesn't write one for me again out of pure negligence. It's not like I can reapply again for a 3rd time... On a better note, I am feeling a lot better than I did this past weekend.