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  1. My relationship with my supervisor feels very up and down, and it's hard to separate that from whether I'm critically behind on my work. Not feeling the best about it all.
  2. My biggest piece of advice would be to take on less than what you think you can handle. It looks much worse to step down from a commitment than to not take it on in the first place. Unfortunately I've had to do just that, which is also another source of anxiety in itself.
  3. Ivy degrees are often regarded as being valuable because of the strong alumni networks. I will say, however, that there is a hierarchy. At least at my undergrad, students in the college felt next to no connection with the graduate/professional schools, and many openly stated that they thought the terminal masters students in most areas weren't subject to the same academic rigor in either the coursework or the admissions process. It's elitist, but that's just how it was. I can see alumni of the college being most willing to talk to graduates from the college, followed by the law and medical schools, as well as PhD programs. I can also see many of these alums having little time for masters graduates.
  4. Feeling a bit depressed and not very optimistic about the future.
  5. Yeah, bipolar 1/anxiety/likely OCD here. I took time off during undergrad because of hospital stays, but no one been asked about it my grad applications. I ended up accepting at a place at a good university which is exceptional in my department (top 10). I am genuinely enjoying my PhD here. However, I still hurt a bit when I see my peers who had lower grades than me going to brand name universities like our undergrad. I only applied to programs geographically close to my parents and partner to try and avoid relapse, and though I know I made the right call, it's hard to be reminded of what I can't do anymore. Instead, I try to focus on all that I do have. Living with serious mental illness is a path I would wish on no one, and even doing grad school at all is an achievement for me.
  6. Have you considered non-US departments? Without intending to insult any Americans here (some of my best friends are American), the US tends to be more individualistic and competitive than almost every other country out there. There are some strong physics universities outside the US (especially in the UK, Europe, Australia and Canada) where the culture might be more mellow.
  7. My research trajectory for the next few years is finally coming together. Excited!
  8. I wanted to add: if termination is likely, be honest with the student and get them to resign ASAP. Termination does come up in background checks for future jobs.
  9. Would it be appropriate to suggest he leaves and comes back to a lab once he has some more academic experience under his belt? I think leaving now with an explanation to the PI about how he doesn't have the skills yet is a much better option than termination. However, it also isn't fair on you or the PI to spend resources getting him up to speed as that comes at a cost. I worry that if he is terminated, it will do a lot of harm to his self esteem and enjoyment of STEM. I would be gutted in his position.
  10. I would have a frank talk to him (though leave out the risk of being fired). If he's struggling a lot, he's probably not having fun. And maybe he's just terrible in a wet lab! It doesn't mean that he would be terrible as a doctor, in a computational setting or doing something more biomedical engineering related. And he should know that there are other options, and just because he doesn't have a good intuition for this project doesn't mean he can't be a good scientist.
  11. What sort out outputs do you try and bring on a weekly/fortnightly basis? What generally are the expectations in terms of how much you have accomplished?
  12. Congrats on getting the schizophrenia under control and working hard on your health! I have a condition with some shared symptoms, and I elected to not tell my supervisors, but I did register with the disability office. I also had to take time off during undergrad due to some major episodes, and am also doing much better these days, but I knew that doing nothing wasn't an option, because if I relapsed I wouldn't be in a state to organize accommodations. I have had a really good experience with the disability office, and I recommend seeking them out and getting registered. They can act on your behalf if needed. I haven't told my supervisors, but they know I spent a long time in hospital a while back. If I were to relapse, I would explain as needed. Unfortunately there is a lot of stigma regarding mental health, so I would keep things vague until you get to know them - maybe something like "a few years ago I was really unwell with a chronic medical condition. Things have been under control for a while now, but if become sick again I might need to take some time out to get better. I've spoken to the disability office and will work with them in the worst-case scenario that I get sick again." I have a friend who disclosed bipolar II to his supervisor, and it went well. But people tend to understand depression much more than psychosis. Wishing you a really positive masters experience!
  13. Yep, I got 170 on both the quantitative and verbal sections first time. I took the exam during spring break my junior year, and had the first week of spring break to study. In reality, I found that I didn't need to prepare for the quant section coming from a STEM major: once I knew what the question style was, the rest followed. I don't have a very good vocabulary though, so used the Magoosh flashcard app and that helped a lot. I also used the 5lb Manhattan Prep book to study for the verbal section. I had very limited income during my undergrad, so I was really hoping that I could pass first time around.
  14. Those would be fine to me. I complement people on their new haircuts or clothes all the time (and to a broad spectrum of people so it's pretty obvious there's nothing more to it), as well as comment on other things like nice photos they put on Facebook or non-academic writing that they've shown me. I do it because I like to try and help people feel good about themselves, and I'm sure that the hypothetical professor could have been doing just that. But the wink and the "on you" would have really thrown me. Even just reading that makes me feel extremely uncomfortable.
  15. Keep it short and simple. Any thank yous can be done in person or in a thank you card. The resignation letter is effectively a legal document. Hand it to your boss in person - email would be inappropriate in my opinion. Arrange to meet privately (book in a time), resign, and give him the hard-copy letter. Follow up with the resignation letter attached to an email, and cc HR if your company has a HR.
  16. I am out of the closet to the disability office, to my coursework professors (but we barely do any), and not at all to my supervisors. As an undergrad, I was out to my supervisor, some professors and my academic administrator.
  17. Options are great! It's good you're keeping an open mind. I will say, I'm in a PhD program where I had to nominate a specific project to gain admission.... however, my research interests have taken a 180 and now I'm doing completely different work, which I prefer. Sometimes these things surprise you! I distinctly remember telling an alum of my program that "whatever I do, it will not be in field XXXX." All of my work is now in field XXXX, which I genuinely never anticipated.
  18. Talking to my dad about politics is extremely frustrating. He's very intelligent, but holds rigid, "traditional" views on world hegemony, women's representation, race and religion (especially Islam). Tonight, I got told that I "hate" Western civilisation, and that I'm an entitled Ivy League graduate who should be grateful for everything Western democracy has given me. This frustrates me to no end, because as a classically trained violinist who loves political thought literature, who has studied multiple European languages, and someone who literally is doing a PhD in financial markets, I live and breathe the virtues of Western civilisation. But I find it intellectually lazy and morally corrupt to shout these out without taking a critical look at what we can - and should be - doing better. Complacency is dangerous. Sometimes I wish I could talk about society, politics, or even my own experiences of discrimination or sexual violence with my father. But every time we talk, I feel I get shot down without even presenting my case. It seems like for him, you're either with us or against us. What sort of future do we have if we don't fight for what we can change? (By the way, we are not American. I am the only member of my family to have ever lived there.)
  19. I would actually consider getting any job you can prior to the program commencing to save up, be it in fast food, tutoring, ad-hoc work like vote counting in elections... anything. If something goes wrong with the loans it can seriously impact your ability to get a mortgage in the future or other loans, and you don't know what life circumstances might cause you to take out loans.
  20. I would move. I commute to campus and the distance makes it hard socially.
  21. I got a high distinction in the midterm I thought I had failed. Yay!
  22. Go for it! Make sure you have a safety net and are in a supportive program. That might mean sacrificing some prestige to have a program with a good culture and close to your support network. So many of us have mental illnesses of varying degrees of severity. I was working in my office the other day and there were only three of us in - the other two were talking about their depression and anxiety. Little did they know that 100% of us in at that time had diagnosed mood and anxiety disorders. And I thought a lot of people had mental illness in my undergrad...
  23. The awkward moment when grad school is going so badly that you have nothing to add to the positivity thread.
  24. Summer is a few months long, right? Take a week or two off at first without any work. Sleep as much as you want. Go on walks everyday. Go swimming. Bake something. Visit a new part of town. Whatever you feel like, do it. If you feel like nothing, do nothing. I'm not sure what works for you, but I like to chunk time and have routines. I'm also a bit of a morning person. Something that has worked for me previously in similar situations is to get up, have breakfast or a cup of tea, and do two hours of work each morning. That way I know I've been productive before I do the fun stuff, and I also know that I'm consistently chipping away at what I need to do. Once it gets built into my schedule, it doesn't feel like a chore.
  25. I think it also depends on what type of social media you use. On LinkedIn it is definitely acceptable to talk about all of your accomplishments, and as another poster said blogs are a great place for that too. I think Facebook can feel a little different - it's more personal than other mediums, and some people might feel like you're intruding into their personal space. That said, I know plenty of people who post everything on Facebook and while it doesn't bother me at all, I can see how it could rub some people the wrong way.
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