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For the second year in a row, I did not even win HM from Ford. Last year, some thought that everyone who did not receive the award got HM, because it seemed that everyone on this board had. Well, I can tell you that is not true, unless I am the only one. :x Great job to everyone who did get it. I am trying not to let this destroy all of my hope, as I am still in limbo for NSF.

I had to call to ask a school and the answer was that it was "in the works". I am frustrated. I need that money. But I will not hesitate to contact them again. If they promised reimbursement, I don't see a problem with making sure I get it.

I am not looking for apartments. I will bite the bullet and live in Odum. Coming from CA, I think it is the best choice. Finding housing is tough, and I don't want to get into a bad lease. Also, I kind of miss the convenience of living on campus.

Irvine isn't that hot. You'll just see the sun every now and then, unlike in Pensylvania!

I didn't want to deal with all of this stuff you guys are talking about, so I am loading up my Neon and headng from california to North Carolina with whatever will fit. I am going to live on campus for my first semester so that I can scope the place out. I did not want the stress of moving 3000 miles, leaving my boyfriend and my family and a job that I love, trying to meet new people, finding a church, adjusting to Grad School, blah, blah blah, so everything that I don't need is staying here for now. Grad student housiing may suck, but the convenience was well worth the trade-off for me.

Going to UNC-Chapel for Sociology PhD. My dream school! I am wearing my Carolina Blue sweatshirt still!

Uggh! I didn't get it either. I am coming straight out of undergrad, so my chances were slim, but I had a letter from someone super famous. Hopefully, she'll write one for me next year, too.

I burst into tears when I send on the email tellling my advisor at Penn State that I would not be coming. Turning down Notre Dame was just as hard, but I know that UNC is the right place for me.

I am planning to read, throw away everything that I will not be taking with me to school, and spend time with everyone that I will miss desperately when I am gone. Then in mid July, I am loading up the Neon and driving across country with my boyfriend, who I hope to enjoy and not leave in a small town along the way. We are planning to see the sights and take at least a week to drive from San Jose to Chapel Hill. I am a huge country fan so we will be visiting Nashville for a bit. And BF wants to go to... Dollywood. I wish I was joking. Has anyone been there? I am hoping that someone has and it sucks so we won't have to waste time in Pigeon Forge, Tenn. Also, does anyone know any good trip planning websites? I haven't really found any and this is kind of a once in a lifetime trip, so I don't want to miss anything.

One of my coworkers and I were talking about this very thing last week. He said that he just stopped feeling like an imposter in the radio business last year, after more than 30 years. I thought that I felt like an imposter because I am not a traditional student, because I have had a difficult past because of horrible decisions as a young adult, and because I have had 2 undergrad careers, one as a complete loser, one as one of the best students my department has seen in recent years. It seems like something that EVERYONE goes through! Yea! I am not as screwed as I thought i was. Someone told me at the beginning of this that they would not accept me if they didn't think that I could be successful. I got in to 5/10 schools and upon further investigation, I would have been miserable at the 5 that I didn't get in to. These committee folks know what they are doing! So, the top 5 program that picked me out of my state university thinks I can make it, and I believe them... most of the time!

I am wondering the same thing about looking for a fill in radio DJ job. I really want to do it because I love it, not for the money, but I think it's the same situation, plus, being a fill-in has a way of becoming much much more. Hmmm

Hear, hear! All those visits do me no good if I don't graduate. I finally made a decidion so that I could get back to work!

Well, it's finally sinking in. After a long, arduous battle with myself I went out today and bought Carolina sweatshirt, the final commitment to my grad school of choice. It was surprisingly easy, but expensive to do in San Jose, CA. Will anyone be joing me this fall?

Argh! I called this morning and the answer was "probably by the end of this week". Now I have to make a decision about where to go without that bit of info.

Ok, I admit a flair for the dramatic, but it is a tough decision none the less, as I am sure others in my position will agree. I have informed the schools that I know I will not be attending. Believe me, I would like to decide this very soon as the sleepless nights are getting to me.