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Excuse me if I am reading too much into your posts, but you don't actually seem to be that excited about being a graduate student for reasons other than just anxiety about moving (which, as other people have pointed out, is completely and totally normal. You are definitely not alone in that!). When you described your reasons for wanting to go to graduate school you repeatedly stated that it was a better alternative than your current dead-end job, but you didn't mention anything about excitement at the prospect of doing research or studying something you are passionate about. I know its entirely possible that your anxiety about moving is making it difficult for you to be too excited about grad school, but I think trying to become more excited might also help alleviate some of the anxiety you are feeling. I know for me reading through lists of courses offered at the schools where I have applied or learning more about research that POIs have completed tends to make me more enthused about the idea of leaving my family and makes the entire process feel more worth it. If you have done these things and still don't feel enthused, then maybe you should take some time to seriously evaluate your motives for attending graduate school. You deserve to do something that will make you happy! There is no shame at all in turning down a funded PhD offer if you feel that it isn't something that will make you happy.