@ra42890 Thank you for starting this feed. I too need to vent.
I hate this. I figure I have gone through the waiting game after dealing with unemployment for seven months back in 2014. But man, this take the cake. I think the fact that I am applying to a PhD program in Toronto - a place where I have never been - makes things a little more intense. Since finding this site (on Feb 17)... man I think my anxiety has increased ten fold. It doesn't help that I really want to know if I got accepted so I can envision my exit plan at my current job. I look forward to the opportunity to have nothing to lose and tell them exactly what I think of their organization. Oh... that would be the best.
My parents are praying I get accepted so I will be geographically closer to them (they live in DC). I have been living here for almost the past 9 years. The idea of being a 8.5 hour car drive away from them as opposed to a minimum 15 hour multiple plane ride away makes me smile. I have been so resistant to leaving this country. But I think I could use a few years to meeting different people and get a different perspective on life. I am so crazy excited about all the things it could mean. And so dreading the possibility of rejection. When the reality is I will just apply again next year. And nothing would change.
I e-mailed the program last Wednesday (March 1) and they immediately replied and said I would hear by the end of the week. I went in crazy panic counting down the hour mode. I sent them a thank you e-mail. To which she literally said "That might have been optimistic of me, more likely you will hear by end of next week.". And all I thought wast: WELL THANK YOU VERY MUCH, I LITERALLY HATE YOU RIGHT NOW. So now we are 3.5 days until the end of the week. And I have watched 9 movies since receiving that e-mail in a effort to distract myself. (By the way, Lion is an amazing movie - everyone should see it... and La La Land is entirely overrated). At least I am still meeting all deadlines at work. I have been avoiding hanging out with friends because I am the opposite of a good time right now.
Please make the end of the week come sooner! I feel like this will never end!!!!