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Chime on the reliability! That's really what at-risk kids need: an adult role model who has it together and will show up for them. Just modeling what a put-together person looks like can be eye-opening for some kids. I think of a friend of my sister's who lived with us for a little while. When she came over to my father's place for dinner, she was amazed that we had a good relationship with our stepmother, since (from her own experience) she didn't know that was possible. We had no idea.

How are these fields characterized? I've heard that the biological sciences in particular are quite cutthroat, which can be draining for the people who are in it for the science and are not naturally competitive people. (This is hearsay, obviously.)

Wow, reachystik, clearly you had some students who resented studying any gender theory at all.

Well, what exactly is the field and/or prompting question? Is the application specifically asking if you are "diverse"? Do you have a separate personal statement and SOP, or is it one document? If a separate personal statement is not required, then you probably need to stick to your past work and proposed research in the SOP. Many people suggest keeping one's SOP focused upon intellectual passions rather than personal background, except in rare cases. This is not because there aren't valid personal reasons for choosing a course of study (for example, if a person you loved died of X disease and now you want to study it) but because grad schools are trying to gauge intellectual ability, engagement, creativity, etc. The SOP's role in the application process (aside from demonstrating your experience and areas of interest) is to show that you can come up with interesting research proposals. People from your field can give you better advice, however, as the extent to which sharing one's personal experience is acceptable varies by field. I imagine that both your upbringing and past work as a suicide counselor (?) would be helpful to add for certain public policy or social work programs. However, I am speculating.

I've had pretty much the best first batch of students I could imagine. They're engaged in class, they've got interesting things to say, they are earnest, they have good rapport with each other, and they forgive my mistakes. Best of all, every single student I talked to about a bad second paper came to me asking how to improve rather than demanding a better grade. I feel really lucky. They all (or even mostly) aren't brilliant writers yet, of course, but on a personal level they made my first term teaching very enjoyable.

I like what eco_env suggested about the subject line: it would make me read a recruitment email if I could quickly look over it and determine basic fit. (Obviously the email should also include a sentence or two about the available prof's research.) I remember getting recruitment emails which mentioned money in the subject line, and those always seemed desperate to me, so don't lead with that. I would be happy to read about a program's funding in the text of the email itself, though. About the University of Puget Sound: gah, is that their recruitment tagline now? That's cheesy and awful! (I'm allowed to say that because it's my alma mater.) At least it gives a nod to the fact that no one outside the Pacific Northwest knows what the Puget Sound actually is.

Keeping in mind all local privacy and surveillance laws, of course.

So...which is it? Are we on GradCafe a clique, or do we not like getting our buttons pushed? That's the thing, though - this comment shows that you realize some of your statements are designed to get a rise out of people, and then you are surprised when people get annoyed.

Yes, while this is a terrible story (if true - and honestly, I'd expect to hear about something like this in some toxic business workplaces, so why not academia?) it is by no means typical. As one professor once wisely told me, "You get some buttheads in any group of people." Academia is unique in that we can expect to spend many years or even decades with our colleagues. Even people we normally like can get tiresome after all that time. But that's one of the things worth enduring, in my opinion.

Oh! So every program you apply to has majority non-white, non-male faculty and graduate students, and all the conferences are overwhelmingly dominated by the same, right? I mean actually over 50% of the academics, not just a casual "oh I know more than a handful so the field must be overrun" kind of accounting. Honestly, what kind of a critique is this? I realize you had a disclaimer that you didn't think before posting this rant but it's interesting what you came up with in a moment of pure purge. This is actually more to the point of your problem.

Don't be so hard on yourself. You were in one of your first relationships (perhaps the first?) and it turned out that you were really compatible. But thinking about living together for the rest of your lives is a big, big step, especially when you haven't dated other people yet. I think it was totally reasonable to wonder if perhaps you are more suited to someone else, or for you to just be curious about being with someone else. And people grow and change; though you have since concluded that you still want to be with her, it was not a bad idea to take a step back and consider if you still match each other enough to stay together. These are difficult issues, and I wish you the best of luck in figuring it out. If you end up getting back together - great! If not, don't feel that you are a failure or a bad person for ending the relationship. You are not - you are grieving. Though most breakups are portrayed as ugly, rancorous messes, in reality people who still love each other must sometimes part, and it is hard and no one's fault.

I should clarify that it should be something you could live with; otherwise it is a bad idea to agree to an arrangement you know you will resent.

Chime on the language preparation. If you are doing Middle East history, you should know that field puts huge stress on language, perhaps equal or greater than the emphasis put on language for medievalists. And the sooner you can work with primary sources, the better. And (arguably) the most important part of your application will be the writing sample. If you want to spend extra time on something after you've spent all your money on language classes, polish that.

Though it may not seem like it, time goes by pretty fast. It may be too soon for you to have a "let's commit for the rest of our lives" conversation, it sounds like it's just about time for you to check in and see what you are willing to give up for each other. If you are going to be together in the long term, it really isn't that big a deal to give her a year, or two, or five right now. However, by doing so she should also promise to support you when it comes time for you to go to grad school. Depending upon how mobile her career is and what her own personal goals are, this may be a fundamental problem for you as a couple and you really should know about it right now. You may also make trade-offs which will inhibit your career later. For example, she'll put off starting that small business and you'll be the primary caretaker for any future children; or she'll move with you now but you will need to find a job close to family. Etc. Every couple comes up with different solutions which work for them. However, you are already aware of the possibility that you may need to make a terrible choice: to break up and pursue your dreams, or to stay together and modify your dreams. My sympathies, and best of luck!

An alternative to extending your study by a year would be to ask a professor to informally mentor you as you write a research paper of your own the summer after you graduate. This time frame is doable (especially if you start research now and devote the summer to writing); I, for example, wrote my senior thesis in one semester. Make sure to thank the professor a lot.

I was not claiming that there was no violence against people in Vancouver. Rather, I was questioning your hyperbolic use of the term "destroyed" and then also making an unrelated point that the word "violence" is often used to misrepresent what occurs at protests.

I live in Vancouver, and it was nowhere near "destroyed." Nor was Seattle at the WTO protests. And, according to my Canadian friends, Montreal has a riot just about every time they win a hockey game and that city still appears to be chugging along. In any case, I think it is important to distinguish different kinds of violence. "Violence" at protests is most often directed at property. This is not to downplay at all the fear of being violently attacked, and of course it certainly happens, but when the word "violence" is linked to "protest" without qualification it is often misleading. You have to read to the end of the article to learn that a few store fronts were smashed in - upsetting, but absolutely nothing like harming another human being.

And how!

Wait, you are paying for your own degree yourself? You didn't get any funding? To put it bluntly: why did you think it was a good idea to spend your own money on a Ph.D in history? Even if you are, though, a degree isn't like a television or some other object you buy: you don't "deserve" anything just because you paid for the experience of being trained as an academic. Just because the experience may not be what you want doesn't mean they don't deserve to be paid for the effort and time to train you. Imagine not paying a doctor because you have bad health - that doesn't work, right? I think you are right to suspect the department is shutting you out collectively. It probably doesn't have anything to do with your work; such unified action on their part speaks to a situation where something about you yourself makes them all not want to work with you. Especially after that not-so-subtle hint from the dean that you should probably leave. It can't be a professional thing (i.e. plagiarism, unprofessional behavior) or an aspect of your ability (i.e. grades, research) because they would have openly stated if that were the case. I am not hopeful after reading your account. The bridges may be already burnt. Maybe you should sit down with some close friends or fellow grad students and have them tell you if you have any shortcomings which make it difficult to work with you. It may be as simple as you are the political black sheep in the department and they don't want to hear your opinion, but it may also be intolerable personal traits which make it difficult to advise you: you don't listen to critiques, for example, or you are arrogant, etc. We can't know here on the internet, but your friends probably know, and probably have substantive suggestions for altering your behavior.

I squirrel away a small amount of my paycheck each time - less than $100 - but this is for, alternatively, fun travel (as opposed to work travel) and paying off interest from my student loans. Or, I suppose, emergencies. I am able to do this, though, because I got a smokin' deal on housing, I cook for myself, and I don't drink beer (which can make pub night kind of boring at times, but I don't like the taste of it). The trade-off is an hour commute each way, and I'm really having some trouble with that, energy-wise. Anyway, "saving" is a bit of a misnomer. I'm planning on spending it all within the next year.

Yeah, for the release of the last Harry Potter book, I got sorted into Ravenclaw too and I was way happy. (Also, too old for activities aimed at kids between 6 and 12 - shhhhh!) A Ravenclaw scarf, though - that's like a public declaration of your smartness. You'd better not wear one of those and then fail to do your work. That's just embarrassing!

It sounds like this problem might be best solved by annotations or footnotes in the text itself. For example: "By lighting on fire the underpants of Joe Shmo (a well-known critic of recent underpants sizing legislation), the sketch points out the inherent hypocrisy of Shmo's rhetoric." Or whatever. This might depend on your writing style, however - sometimes little asides like that can interrupt the flow of writing, in which case the page introduction at the beginning might be a better idea.

How big is the cultural gap here? Is it possible to sacrifice some of your word count for a paragraph or a page explaining basic plot, well-known cultural symbols/figures, etc?

Yes, if I didn't have any debt such a weight would be lifted from my shoulders.

Yep, the deadline does it for me, too. Also, if I'm juggling several assignments at once, it forces me to prioritize and be efficient. I don't have any room to not be doing things, and while I might procrastinate by doing the less urgent things first, everything does get done. Unfortunately, "have lots of stuff due at once isn't a strategy that's easy to implement, unless you are good at telling yourself that your own fake deadlines are real.