I totally get you. I am so financial strained that volunteering is creating more harm then good. It's so frustrating and i think that i will just stop applying as well. Looks like it will be a sad birthday week for me. I cant find a job in the field and i now can't even get into the program. I can't keep waiting so i think a career change is needed but maybe as years past i will rejoin the sw community . It would've been nice to have this so that i could get out of this rut but i guess not everything comes easy:( i wish us both luck.