Hi everyone,
I am a recent graduate and I am planning on applying to graduate school this fall in PoliSci/IR programs and possibly a few Middle Eastern studies MAs. Currently I'm on a one-year language study program.
However, I am facing a few serious problems that have been keeping me up, wondering if this is the right decision. First of all, my undergraduate education has been "unfocused" to say the least. I started off in engineering for two years, then I switched to my major to languages, taking only a few political science classes mixed in. I have only one serious internship, and other than that I worked as a reader/grader for a beginning level language class. My writing sample is not going to be as strong as I had hoped. I was planning on improving it this summer, but work and other obligations left it nearly impossible to pull it off.
I am now wondering if applying to a PhD program right now is really the smartest decision, and whether or not I would even get into a good program.
I am considering my options:
1. Apply straight to a PhD program.
2. Apply to a master's program.
3. Scrape for odd jobs / internships / office work that is at least somewhat related to the fiel I'm interested in, then use that time to build my resume and apply to grad schools.
All of my professors recommend that I go straight to a PhD program, and it is the only option that (assuming I get some funding) wouldn't leave me loaded with debt. All of my professors recommended to not even apply to a master's unless I'm sure I don't want to do a PhD. They said that a master's is only useful if I want to go straight to working in policy, and if I want to do a PhD afterwards, it only means a loss of time and money. And they all said that working right away might leave me stuck outside of academia.
However, I having some second thoughts about applying to PhD programs. As I said, my resume is somewhat unimpressive compared to the new candidates in the programs I am looking at. And I am also worried about my prospects after grad school; I know that experience and connections (unfortunately) count for a lot when it comes to think tanks and policy work, and I am wondering if doing a master's and getting some work experience before going to a PhD program won't be such a bad idea.
Finally, I am starting to feel a little burnout. I know this sounds terrible, but since I'm on an anonymous forum I feel a little more confortable saying this. The idea of going to an office, working set hours, and not bringing work back home with me sounds good right now. I'm a little tired of constant long-term projects hanging over my head. A structured, compartmentalized work environment actually sounds comforting right now. I realize this is the exact opposite of the grad school experience, which is worrying. However, the thing is that I have another year in this language program abroad, and it could be the refresher I needed, and planning on taking another year as a gap year could end up being wasted time.
I know this is a lot to consider (graduate path to think tank work combined with burnout) and I would really appreciate any and all advice.
Thank you