I guess this is just what comes with the whole process of grad school applications.
I'm doing my best to stay positive but I am constantly filled with doubt about how I really measure up to other applicants.
I wonder why I even put myself through this in the first place and how all the money I spent could have been put to something else.
Sometimes I think maybe this is just a defense mechanism. If I have low expectations, I won't be disappointed if I'm rejected, and will be extremely happy if I'm accepted.
I wish I could just forget about all this for a while and not remember until the admin decisions actually come out.