I'm entering my fifth year of the PhD and my last year of guaranteed funding at a fairly well regarded Gender Studies program (though there's likely another two years under not-so-great-teaching-conditions). I've spent the last two years in a massive depression and haven't done any work. My advisor, while famous and well regarded, has turned out to be neglectful and downright cruel. I defended a proposal before my committee that I hated and think is unsalvageable because my advisor gave me wrong info about deadlines and committee reqs AND refused to give me feedback.
I WANT to finish and to write!! But I feel like I have nothing at all to write about and I'm paralyzed with depression, fear, and hopelessness-- no amount of therapy has helped. Nobody in the dept cares or wants to help me. My advisor hasn't checked in with me six months, which is utterly unsurprising. When I ask them for help they ignore me. I'm so unhappy. I really wanted to do this when I came into the program. I feel like every drop of potential and enthusiasm has been killed in me. If I knew what to write, I would, but I'm at such a loss I might as well write about the surface of Mars.
I just need advice/kind words/anything.
I'm having trouble figuring out what to put on my CV. I have an M.A. but I've never published anything. I am involved in a number of community organizations that are relevant to my research, I work for an academic publisher, are these things I should put on my CV? What about writing? I'm in the process of submitting my MA thesis, should I put that? Should I put other projects as "in-progress"? Basically: help!
I'm having trouble figuring out what to put on my CV. I have an M.A. but I've never published anything. I am involved in a number of community organizations that are relevant to my research, I work for an academic publisher, are these things I should put on my CV? What about writing? I'm in the process of submitting my MA thesis, should I put that? Should I put other projects as "in-progress"? Basically: help!
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