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Oops, I was thinking of this as a general how many schools to apply to kind of thread, didn't quite realize you were trying to gauge specifically SLP. 

Is your signature correct? If so, then Asian Studies is a VERY different field than SLP. So much so that I'm not sure why you decided to comment.

I'm really happy to be in solidarity with someone at least... all those green signature lines are killing me softly. Now... should I move to Mexico and learn Spanish next year or move to the Alaskan bush and learn to hunt? (These are places I can hide/escape my shame)

At this point, I'm asking myself "what the heck am I doing with my life?!"

Same story here. Nothing but rejections yet... gosh, why can't getting into graduate school be more like Undergrad? so stressed! 

I love that I got down voted for this response. LOL. Wow. 

I'm still really confused how you came to that conclusion, so I'm just going to leave one of my previous statements here....good luck with everything and stay healthy.
 

I understand your intentions were to help put things in perspective, which I appreciate. You didn't call me delusional outright. I was inferring this from your comment about what grad school is really like, in your experience and your statement about it not being glorious. I also inferred from your comment about trying again next year/getting a job in the field, etc. that you are assuming you know something about my current life situation. 
In other words, you may have written a well-intentioned comment, but came off a little like you were telling me how I should be reacting, telling me my emotions are not valid responses, etc. Hence my response. 

You are completely right, however it is very difficult for me to "just relax." Coming to this discussion forum and venting is what helps me. Different people react differently to rejections and logically I know you are right - it doesn't reflect on my identity as a writer. But I won't apologize for being anxious about it. Part of working through my emotions to logic is coming here and posting and reading other posts. 
And I know very well that a PhD program will not be "glorious" - that's not why I applied. I applied because I want to do a lot of homework, read a lot, etc. Just because I want it badly doesn't mean I'm delusional. Also, please don't assume that you know about my circumstances and what is or is not possible for me if I get rejected. 
I appreciate your advice and that you shared your experiences, however you are writing from the viewpoint of someone who has been accepted to schools, whereas I have not. Our situations are different and our thoughts/feelings are equally valid.

Wow...okay.  I think you may have misconstrued my intentions.  Where did I 1) call you delusional?, 2) say that I know about your circumstances and life possibilities outside of grad school apart from (quite casually, I thought) saying there is always a chance next year or at some point in the future?  I have been in your shoes, I WAS rejected everywhere in the past.  I'm not trying to undermine your feelings, as it is a very confusing and frustrating time in your life, but making yourself sick over it (I think you mentioned an ulcer?) isn't going to do anything but compound the stress.

Didn't you post this thread before?