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  1. KayAnne14

    Ready As I'll Ever Be

    Hello fellow readers, I know this may seem like a strange post (especially if you've read my writing on here before), but I've started to notice that every time I get on here my computer kind of acts up. So, what I would like you to do about it is to take to the polls!! In other words: VOTE! You've already read this far so you may as well. I'm thinking of creating a Facebook page since it would kind of make it easier to keep up with and it may reach a larger audience, but I'm still debating. Anyways, please tell me what you think, and check out the actual blog on here, Ready As I'll Ever Be!!! Thanks for reading the random thought processes of the interworking's of my (possibly) delusional mind! K. P.S. I know this doesn't have anything much to do with grad school at the moment...please don't remind me...and thanks for all the fan mail!!!!!
  2. KayAnne14

    Screw The Back Up!

    Hey Moods! Glad to hear from you again! And thanks so much for reading. I don't think I would have kept doing this if I didn't have supporters like you! Hope you keep reading and be sure to let me know how the abyss is going for you or if you ever hear back from your grad school choice(s)!! Thanks for reading, K.
  3. KayAnne14

    Screw The Back Up!

    Hello my fellow potential grad school students! So recently, I've been getting a few messages asking me what I'm doing during the abysmal "waiting it out" process. Rather than going into detail on every single reply, I've decided a blog post would be the most beneficial to everyone, myself included. As much as you may think differently, I am new to this entire process myself. I say that because I want everyone to know one simple thing: I have no idea what I'm doing. Yes, I may have started this blog and yes, it may have connected with people, but that doesn't mean I'm some sort of pro! I am a 22 year old who decided to follow my dream and take the next step toward my next educational frenemy (aka grad school). So, let me answer the question that so many have asked: what am I doing to pass the time? First, let me just say a whole lot of nothing. Yes, I work, and yes, I'm partially continuing personal research on a few matters, but it boils down to doing a whole lot of nothing. I work 5-6 days a week, go to pt about twice a week, I try to do research but half the time I get distracted half way through and end up on random websites like Pinterest, Facebook, and the occasional YouTube which gets me hooked for a few hours. I would love to say that I'm continuing my research, which is coming along swimmingly, and I have made new discoveries which will soon lead me to the path of enlightenment. Or that I'm planning for my next step (grad school or otherwise) and have everything planned out to a tee. Also, it would be fun if I could tell you that I became famous in my short time period on this blog and am now in the process of publishing my first worldwide famous book that is soon going to be made into a movie and be sold out all over the world. After all, any of those options right now would be worth my time; however, sadly none of that is happening. The truth (besides what I already hinted to above), secondly, is I'm thinking about a lot of "what if" scenarios. I know I've touched on this a bit in the past, but I wanted to be honest with you. It's not like I write about something and then it magically changes the moment it gets over 200 reads. That's not how this works. That's not how any of this works. The issue doesn't go away. No matter what you or I may try to do. The thought of rejection will forever linger in the back of my mind, and if you're like me then you're the same (hate to tell you). I think everyone fears rejection, after all, no one likes to be told "no" or that they aren't good enough. If you do like to be told these things...honestly, I have no advice or witty remark to make here so you've officially left me at a blank, but still. Rejection sucks. Especially since we all know how it feels. With the thought of rejection comes the scenario of what I (or you) am/are going to do if this whole expedition of grad school doesn't work the way we expect it to. In other words, what's going to happen next if this doesn't work out? Well, I feel like in that sentence lies the root to our underlying problem. I'm sure that you've planned out how grad school is going to work out for you, where you're going to go, and what is going to happen after graduation. I have to and there's nothing wrong with that! However, if you're like me, then the question of "what if" lies deep in the core and, like I said, here lies the problem. I know I've said having a back up plan is a smart move (after all, I probably have over a dozen at this point and I still continue to add to that list), but after typing this out so many times it got me wondering. When I started to wonder I came to a frighteningly, devastating, partial realization that may be only for me, but I'm going to tell you anyways because that's the point of you reading up until this point. If by having all these back up plans, like I said I did, then that, in fact, is my problem. I started to think that by putting all this effort into the "what if" question scenarios, I'm actually taking away from what I actually want to happen which is grad school. I know that with applications already in there's not much I can do besides wait, but I could still be planning out what is going to happen not "if" but "when" I get in. We (again, I'm assuming you're like me) put all this effort into the higher possibility that our dreams will fail, but that takes away our hope of fulfilling our dreams. So, and I know this is easier said than done, stop. Stop degrading yourself to your back up plan. If it happens, fine, if it doesn't then that's great too. But at this point, you back up plan has taken away enough of our precious time. Now it's time to think about what we WANT to happen, rather than think about what may or may not happen. Finally, my last piece of advice is simple: go shopping. Not literally, of course! After all, we are potential grad school students, we're beyond broke. But play around with a few ideas like, "where you're going to live once you get accepted?" Or, "what are you going to decorate your apartment like?" To which, may I suggest Pinterest. Spark the inspiration of acceptance and think about these things. Look at apartments, look at decorating/organizing ideas, and look at scholarship possibilities (after all, we're broke and need all the help we can get). You've got more fire in you than you realize, and I hope that this sparks a little bit of inspiration. Anyways, thank you all for reading and I apologize if you have read some of my recent stuff...had a little bit of writer's block and I think I may finally be out of it. Be sure to check out the #SpreadTheLove campaign on my blog, and I also have another poll about Facebook so be sure to check it out. Also, I love hearing from you guys, so thank you all for your comments, your "fan mail" for those of you calling it that, and for your shares! It's amazing to know that people actually get a small kick out of reading my writing and it really makes me happy. Hope everyone has a great week, and I look forward to hearing from you in some way, shape, or form! Until next time, K.
  4. KayAnne14

    Ready As I'll Ever Be

    Hey, Moods! It's good to hear from you again! And don't worry! I don't plan on quitting Ready As I'll Ever Be any time soon. I've decided that once I get at least a hundred followers, and a few hundred on the blog, or at least that many voting "yes" on this poll, then the Facebooking shall commence, but until then I'll limit myself to being just on here! I hope to hear from you again soon! And be sure to get people to vote or share my posts if you wanna see a FB page getting made in the future!! Until next time, K.
  5. KayAnne14

    Going the Distance

    Hello guys and gals, lords and ladies, At this point I have a small number of you that actually enjoy my writing, and first off I would like to say thanks for all your support (fan mail and all)! However, as I sit here in the darkness of the night, having my mind be to anxious to go to sleep, I find myself wondering two things, both with the same key phrase: "go the distance" (yes, like the amazing Hercules song; no, there's no judgement). Here's what I don't want: I don't want you to read this in the questioning manner (so don't sit there and start questioning every single decision you've had to make or have been making during this grad school process...yes, I'm talking to you). I'm a firm believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason, so you are going through this ordeal for a reason, whether it's good or bad. After all, I'm living proof...but that's a story for another day. Here's what I want to happen (although, there is no guarantee it will): I want you, you, who is sitting there on your phone or computer, reading this looking to connect with other people and research what this whole process is like, I want you to read this little post and reflect. Not reflect on what you've done, but what you will do. Scratch that. What you are willing to do. So, let me state the two differences that arise in the same phrase. 1) "go the distance" - how far are you willing to go to succeed in life? I don't think I need to state that you have to remain within the legal boundaries, but I already did. I know, just like you, that grad school is a lot. And I'm not just talking about financially. It's a lot of hard work, dedication, time, and sacrifice. It's pushing yourself to see how far you can go, and it's pushing yourself even more to show you have what it takes. I could sit here and tell you that I, (hopefully) future marine archaeologist, went so far to have hip reconstruction surgery, have had/am having/will have six months of physical therapy, and more physical restraints and responsibilities in order to take a step toward my dream. However, that isn't necessarily the case. As much as I would like to say I went through all that just for grad school would be a load of BS, and I don't want to forget the fact that now I'll be able to swim with my nieces and nephews, or the fact that I'll be able to dance again, or even the fact that I can now have the opportunity to learn new things like yoga, surfing, or even scuba diving (although that last one I need for grad school as well, but that's not the point). I went so far as to basically put my life on hold while enduring this whole thing, and the idea of grad school just helped me get through it all. But that's not it. You see, I also went and started a blog on a website built just for grad students, both present and future, to help me connect with people who know what I'm going through. However, do you know what I'm not willing to do? Give up. I don't plan on giving up any close relationships I've built with my friends and family. I don't plan on having time pass me by while I wait for a letter in the mail deciding my future. And, most of all, I'm not willing to give up dreaming. Something that I've learned is that there is always this line that people invisibly draw around them (almost like that circle in the movie, The Little Princess (one of my favorite movies btw)). This line not only establishes what they're willing to not do, but it helps them push the boundaries of what they thought they could do. It helps people realize that they are stronger than other's give them credit for. You are a part of this group! This circle in the sand is your barrier, but it is not your cage. You get to decide how far you go, and you get to decide what you are not willing to sacrifice. Yes, you might get into grad school, but it would be all for not if you ended up throwing away all the friendships you've made along the way, all the memories that you would have forgotten, and all the warmth you've felt. No, you might not get into grad school, but if you let that one rejection be your cage then you will forever be trapped in a state of "what if" and "not good enough." Neither are a good way to live. 2) "go the distance" Same phrase, different meaning. The first questions your boundaries; this one, however, says, "what boundaries?" It means to push yourself to be the best version of yourself that you can be. It means to trust in your abilities and know that you are not alone. It means having faith even when it may seem hopeless. While some of you would prefer to go with the second one for encouragement and stamina, I'm afraid that you don't get to choose. They are the same phrase for a reason. Both are what make up a great story, but both are what make up an even greater life. It is because you have read until this far that the following phrase will make sense to you: go the distance so that you can go the distance. Know your boundaries so that you can push past them. You've got this! Isn't it about time you started trying? I know that this post is getting pretty long so I'll try to keep this next bit short. This is a copy. I know it may seem weird, but my curiosity got peaked sitting here in the darkness at...12:37am. The post with the "*" by the signature is part of my blog, while the one with the "!" is a forum. It's not that I want to see which does better...after all, it's the same exact post. More like, I want to see which one has the bigger audience/viewers to see which portion of this cafe is more...well, I guess you could say "popular" was the word I was going for... Anyways, let me know which you read, and if you read both, I just have one question: why? I just told you they were the same post... I hope everyone has a good night, a great weekend, and a great week ahead. Be sure to remember the difference and thank you all for reading! Hope to hear from you all soon, K!
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    Let the games begin...

    Well, it's January (as if you didn't know). The month of New Year's Resolutions, the same resolutions starting to fail, the newly established "How have you aged?" Facebook fad, and (to the grad school wannabes) deadlines. I have looked at enough programs to know that most of the application deadlines are in January. So, I have a little message for everyone involved: may the odds be ever in your favor (insert Hunger Games whistle tune here). At this point, you are most likely panicking because that one professor or person is waiting until the very last second to send in their letter of recommendation, digging further into your program research (aka looking at the campus, the teachers, student life, etc), or checking your email two - three times a day waiting to hear on the life changing decision. So, let the games begin... With today being the deadline for a lot of programs (hopefully not yours if you're still waiting on that one annoying person who takes forever to get stuff done), let me just say/hope that this next week will be one of the most calming. Everything is finally turned in and completed, you know that you won't have a decision for a while, and you're toying with the idea of where you're going to live when you move in July/August. To that, may I recommend one fatal app: Pinterest. Let's be honest, you've most likely heard of it by now, and most of you are probably just as addicted as I am. I mean, how cute are those little apartment ideas that pop up on your board, right?! My poor Pinterest is a victim to my fangirl side, my inspirational side, and my writing/grad school side. Your's is probably similar and there is no shame! So, my fellow grad school wannabes, enjoy the next two - three weeks. This is the only time where you know you won't hear back and you know there won't be a decision made. This is the only time where you can let your mind wonder to the amazing world of possibilities that will arise once you receive your golden ticket into the chocolate factory. This is the only time (probably) that you will feel peace. So, let your heart take you to the most incredible places imaginable. Hang out with those friends you keep putting off due to stress and laziness (I know because I'm the same), have a game/movie night with your family, and take that lovely cutie pie of a dog on a walk or to the park. In other words, enjoy this time while it lasts because Lord knows that in a month, when you start to see those few little blimps of acceptance or rejection, the stress with pile on full force and you will enter the darkest corners of the abyss. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you learn to enjoy these next few weeks. Be sure to keep reading and check out my blog, Ready As I'll Ever Be, for more fun posts! Also, be sure to vote on the #SpreadTheLove poll for your favorite organization to aspire the spread of education around the world. Until next time, K.
  7. KayAnne14

    Going the Distance

    Aww!!! Thank you so much, Sseire! And good luck on your PhD adventures! I still can't wait to hear your opinion on the Mummy language accuracy lol. Be sure to PM me so we can keep in touch. Wishing you the best of luck, K.
  8. Only because "the thing no one wants to talk about yet everyone needs to think about at some point but no one wants to because it may seem like you're heading towards failure" was a bit long to be title worthy... Welcome back, guys and gals and all those lovely folks who have read my writing before...you know, in that one "blog" post... I hope everyone is having a great day! Why? Because I'm about to ruin it. I know, I'm such a horrible person, but it was bound to happen eventually. In my last post (So, you've entered the abyss...) I briefly discussed the idea of having a back up (or BU for those loyal readers out there...you know, the entire one of you). Well, now it is time for me to elaborate. This is the one thing that everyone who begins the grad school process must come across at some point, however briefly it may be. The truth of the matter is, though, this is going to be the path that some of us end up taking. I thought it best to bring it into the light. Now, the BU plan is different for everybody and doesn't have to be set on a single thing. For example, I'll use myself. While my graduate dream is to become the world's best and most well-known maritime archaeologist by the time I'm in my early 30s, I have a hugely different back up plan...12, in fact. What can I say? My OCD causes me to plan for multiple contingencies. After all, you never know what may happen! So, obviously, my next plan is to become a world renowned writer. Just kidding! While there may be one or two of you out there who are actually getting what little amusement you can out of my writing, it's not my next plan of action. A plan of action, yes. I wouldn't have a three or four half written books sitting on my computer for nothing if it wasn't. Apart from becoming some sort of writer, I may end up starting my own dessert food truck where all the fandoms can unite in the form of your new favorite desserts. (And before you ask, I do have baking experience. I used to be a dessert baker at a local...well, that's beside the point.) If that doesn't work out, I'll go work in a museum somewhere, or maybe do an internship abroad, or, heck, I don't know, become a hard core princess of some small unheard of country! Although not every single one of those may seem attainable (the part about me becoming a writer part, because of course it's possible for me to become a princess), that's beside the point. The point is to have a plan. Any sort of plan, because any sort of plan is still some sort of plan. So, while you are starting to have that little inkling in the back of your head of something else that may seem a bit interesting to you, my advice: look into it. Entertain the idea of actually accomplishing it. That being said, however, don't let a simple back up plan distract you from your main goal. You've got it within your to get yourself where you need to be. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. At least now you know that you'll always have my vote of support. So now go! Go out and make your back up plan. If you don't get into grad school, then show the world just what you can do without it. Don't cut yourself down before you've even begun to fully stand up on your own two feet. Become the tree that rises towards the heavens and who's broken vines and branches have only made you stronger. If you get accepted into your dream program, that's amazing! But if not, then don't worry because there is something better out there for you, even if it takes you a little while to find it. I really wanted to end this little post on a high note so it wouldn't be so depressing, and I hope that I achieved that... Thank you for reading this far and I hope that one day I get to hear what your back up plan may or may not be. Be sure to stay in touch and good luck with all your future endeavors! Sincerely, K.
  9. KayAnne14

    Going the Distance

    Hello guys and gals, lords and ladies, At this point I have a small number of you that actually enjoy my writing, and first off I would like to say thanks for all your support (fan mail and all)! However, as I sit here in the darkness of the night, having my mind be to anxious to go to sleep, I find myself wondering two things, both with the same key phrase: "go the distance" (yes, like the amazing Hercules song; no, there's no judgement). Here's what I don't want: I don't want you to read this in the questioning manner (so don't sit there and start questioning every single decision you've had to make or have been making during this grad school process...yes, I'm talking to you). I'm a firm believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason, so you are going through this ordeal for a reason, whether it's good or bad. After all, I'm living proof...but that's a story for another day. Here's what I want to happen (although, there is no guarantee it will): I want you, you, who is sitting there on your phone or computer, reading this looking to connect with other people and research what this whole process is like, I want you to read this little post and reflect. Not reflect on what you've done, but what you will do. Scratch that. What you are willing to do. So, let me state the two differences that arise in the same phrase. 1) "go the distance" - how far are you willing to go to succeed in life? I don't think I need to state that you have to remain within the legal boundaries, but I already did. I know, just like you, that grad school is a lot. And I'm not just talking about financially. It's a lot of hard work, dedication, time, and sacrifice. It's pushing yourself to see how far you can go, and it's pushing yourself even more to show you have what it takes. I could sit here and tell you that I, (hopefully) future marine archaeologist, went so far to have hip reconstruction surgery, have had/am having/will have six months of physical therapy, and more physical restraints and responsibilities in order to take a step toward my dream. However, that isn't necessarily the case. As much as I would like to say I went through all that just for grad school would be a load of BS, and I don't want to forget the fact that now I'll be able to swim with my nieces and nephews, or the fact that I'll be able to dance again, or even the fact that I can now have the opportunity to learn new things like yoga, surfing, or even scuba diving (although that last one I need for grad school as well, but that's not the point). I went so far as to basically put my life on hold while enduring this whole thing, and the idea of grad school just helped me get through it all. But that's not it. You see, I also went and started a blog on a website built just for grad students, both present and future, to help me connect with people who know what I'm going through. However, do you know what I'm not willing to do? Give up. I don't plan on giving up any close relationships I've built with my friends and family. I don't plan on having time pass me by while I wait for a letter in the mail deciding my future. And, most of all, I'm not willing to give up dreaming. Something that I've learned is that there is always this line that people invisibly draw around them (almost like that circle in the movie, The Little Princess (one of my favorite movies btw)). This line not only establishes what they're willing to not do, but it helps them push the boundaries of what they thought they could do. It helps people realize that they are stronger than other's give them credit for. You are a part of this group! This circle in the sand is your barrier, but it is not your cage. You get to decide how far you go, and you get to decide what you are not willing to sacrifice. Yes, you might get into grad school, but it would be all for not if you ended up throwing away all the friendships you've made along the way, all the memories that you would have forgotten, and all the warmth you've felt. No, you might not get into grad school, but if you let that one rejection be your cage then you will forever be trapped in a state of "what if" and "not good enough." Neither are a good way to live. 2) "go the distance" Same phrase, different meaning. The first questions your boundaries; this one, however, says, "what boundaries?" It means to push yourself to be the best version of yourself that you can be. It means to trust in your abilities and know that you are not alone. It means having faith even when it may seem hopeless. While some of you would prefer to go with the second one for encouragement and stamina, I'm afraid that you don't get to choose. They are the same phrase for a reason. Both are what make up a great story, but both are what make up an even greater life. It is because you have read until this far that the following phrase will make sense to you: go the distance so that you can go the distance. Know your boundaries so that you can push past them. You've got this! Isn't it about time you started trying? I know that this post is getting pretty long so I'll try to keep this next bit short. This is a copy. I know it may seem weird, but my curiosity got peaked sitting here in the darkness at...12:37am. The post with the "*" by the signature is part of my blog, while the one with the "!" is a forum. It's not that I want to see which does better...after all, it's the same exact post. More like, I want to see which one has the bigger audience/viewers to see which portion of this cafe is more...well, I guess you could say "popular" was the word I was going for... Anyways, let me know which you read, and if you read both, I just have one question: why? I just told you they were the same post... I hope everyone has a good night, a great weekend, and a great week ahead. Be sure to remember the difference and thank you all for reading! Hope to hear from you all soon, K*
  10. KayAnne14

    So, you've entered the abyss...

    Sseire, that is amazing advice! Good luck on the translation and I can't wait to hear all about it! Drfigue, you are so welcome! Thank you so much for reading and I hope you keep in touch! Be sure to check out the blog, Ready As AI'll Ever Be, for more! Thanks everyone, K.
  11. Hello guys and gals! While I might be new here, I do know a thing or two about writing/blogging so here we go! Welcome to the abyss. Bet you didn't expect that welcome into darkness but there it is. The abyss is simple: here is where people, most likely people applying for grad school or any college, get to spend their time waiting, pondering over "what if"'s, and wallowing in self misery. This accounts for the entire time period where you, or someone you know, has finished applying to whatever program they are interested and are waiting to hear back on a decision. Me? I've been in the abyss for a month now and still have a while before I'm going to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. What can I say about it? Well, no matter what people try to sell you, it doesn't get any easier no matter what you do. I want you to know, however, that the abyss is different for everyone. In fact, think of it as your own personal educational h**l on earth. One you decided to jump into head first, might I add. The abyss can (and will) bring out the best and worst in you. During this time period, you will get to discover things you probably never even knew about yourself. For example, the fact that you now have anxiety and the fact that it'll probably just get worse as time goes on, as well as the fact that you mentally created scenarios in your head about being far away in the middle of nowhere, finally getting accepted into your dream program at your dream school, and then a fire breathing dragon appears, laughing at you, screeching how you're never going to amount to anything and then throws your pathetic self into the nearest fast food chain. Okay, so that last one may have been just me, but it represents everyone's worst grad school fear...sort of. Don't get me wrong, though. The abyss isn't all bad. I'm sure that you've read somewhere that doing research and getting ahead are great ways to pass the time. It's true! They are, plus anything you can do to get ahead in your field of study is obviously a bonus. However, if you're like me, then there will be that inkling in the back of your mind about what may happen if you aren't accepted and how everything you're doing now is a waste of time. Obviously, this would put a downer on your study habits, unless you have the mental capabilities of a steal trap, to which I say...aren't you lucky (with a slight bitterness in my online voice). Studying and research are obviously great ways to go, AND they might also help you decide what specialty you may want to travel on. Then, you have the option of going on a different route, one that I suggest you think about. The back-up plan. It's this point in the abyss that no one really likes to think about and we all wish would just disappear and never see the light of day again, but no matter what you do and no matter how hard you fight it, you have to think about it. What's worse than thinking about it? Being sure that you can actually follow through when/if the time comes. The BU plan can be almost anything you want it to be, just be sure to plan for a few contingencies that may occur along the way. If your BU plan is to do a different grad school, then try it out the first time and then while you're waiting in another abyss, create a different BU plan on a different path. Whether it is settling for a job you are slightly interested in to following a different dream, make sure it is something achievable. I know it's kind of harsh for me to say this, but it needs to be said. Better you read it for yourself than hear it in person from someone you love...or someone you hate if that's what is going to help you see the method to the madness. You may or may not have an idea on what you want you BU plan to be and that is perfectly fine! Just so long as you are in fact thinking about it. Like I said, the abyss is different for everyone. I just want you to know that you aren't alone in the darkness of despair and waiting. You have friends. You have family. You have me. So, let me hear from you. Your comments, questions, advice. Everything. Even if you just wanna say, "hi." This time frame isn't fun for anyone, but...it does have some slight perks. You just have to figure them out for yourself. Sincerely, K.
  12. KayAnne14

    Finding Your Fairy Godmother

    Bibbidi-bobbidi-booyah! (See what I did there?) For those of you familiar with the tale of Cinderella, let me first start off by saying that I'm not expecting a old, stout woman with a magic wand coming in and hooking me up with an awesome outfit and a night off. While I do have two step-sisters, I know this is far from happening, and although I'm not the biggest fan of the original/Disney version, I do like many of the other "remakes," so to speak. However, if you've watched any of the others (A Cinderella Story or A Cinderella Story: If The Shoe Fits, for example), you'll realize they each have one thing in common: they each have a fairy godmother (in a way)! Now most of the times, this fairy person is a best friend of some sort and that, my dear readers, is exactly what I'm going to talk about today!! Most of you currently in the abyss have understood a few things by now: 1) that annoying voice in your head reaches pitches you didn't even know were possible, 2) how much you love, love, love the Girl Scout cookie season, and 3) what it means to have a good friend who is beyond encouraging during this intense and maddening experience. For some, this friend could me a family member, but for me, my fairy godmother is my best friend. Now just to clarify, this girl had to put up living with me while studying for my GRE while working a full time job. She watched me go through the application process once before only to get rejected due to not having two pre-requisite classes, and she helped me destress by going out one day and buying my favorite snacks and watching movies. I know what you're thinking: "where can I get a friend like this?" Well, that's what I'm here to tell you! During the abyss, the time spent here reveals a multitude of things. Mainly about yourself, yes, but it also reveals the feelings of those closest to you. Who supports you, who encourages you, and who secretly thinks you're wasting your time. The point I'm trying to make here is that in every Cinderella movie, the fairy godmother is someone who sees the spark in Cindy even in the darkest of despair. She not only encourages her, but helps her transform into the princess she is meant to be. Therefore, here is my little piece of advice for you: forget about yourself. I know it may seem strange, especially thinking that your fairy isn't the one who's future hangs in the balance, but this whole grad school process isn't just about you (no matter how much you want to argue with me about it). Forget about yourself, forget about the abyss, and forget about what your next steps are going to be. Your mission, should you choose to accept, is to go out and figure out who your fairy godmother is, then show them your gratitude. Let's face it, you probably wouldn't be where you are without them, so stop trying to pretend otherwise. While your in the midst of stressing about life, they are worrying about you. So go out, give them a hug, buy them their favorite coffee, and show them that you appreciate them! It's not that difficult. Especially since they've had to put up with your abysmal bootie throughout this entire process...plus, better to do this now while you're sitting around doing nothing and staring into the abyss than later down the line when your stressed, panicked, and screaming at your self conscious to finally clean out your closet. So, here is to you, my fairy friend! And here is to all those other fairy godmother's out there who are about to get a amazing surprise. I hope this weekend is great for you all and I hope to hear from you all soon. Thanks for reading! K. P.S. I GOT MY FIRST FAN MAIL THE OTHER DAY!!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! WOOHOO! I feel special! P.P.S. For those dedicated readers, you probably know about my #SpreadTheLove post I plan on doing in February. It's my idea that since we are all on our way to a higher education (or attempting to be at least), to participate or spread the word about some amazing organizations that are trying to raise money to educate the children of other countries. Please take a few seconds to vote on one of the organizations you would want to see some support for, and please, please, please help me get the word out by sharing it on social media! Let's help future generations get the education they deserve. #SpreadTheLove
  13. KayAnne14

    The Thing That Shall Not Be Named...

    Reading these comments truly makes my day!! Who cares if I have to keep saying it. S, I look forward to your analysis of such a great (if not historically accurate) movie and I can't wait to hear about it. And while I have seen some of the X-men movies...I don't think I've seen that one, but good job! I'm proud of you!! As for the adventures, can I just say "same here!"? I can't wait to hear where you end up a few months from now!! Cn0rd, I'll be sure to keep them in mind and look back a few years from now. As for the tags...Princess Diaries reference right there, folks!!!! So glad I'm not the only fan of that movie!! But if you ever get whisked away into royalty...take me with you! Hahaha just kidding (sort of). Btw, I connect with both of you in more ways than you know. One of my side projects that I began during my undergrad career is over the legend and memory of Robin Hood and the things I do for research are both astonishing and incredibly boring at times but I love every minute of it. I hope to hear from you both in the future and I hope you enjoy reading my new blog, Ready As I'll Ever Be! After all, it's because of you guys that I was requested to start it! Thanks so much for reading!! Until next time, K.
  14. KayAnne14

    So, you've entered the abyss...

    Well, all you lovely readers you, Thanks to your suggestions and amazingly encouraging comments, I thought that you all should be the first to know that I have started up my own blog on TheGradCafe! I would be incredibly honored if you checked out Ready As I'll Ever Be and shared with your friends who need the little pep in their grad steps! Thanks for everything and I hope to hear from all of you amazing people soon! Thanks, K.
  15. KayAnne14

    The Trail We Blaze

    Hello my amazing fans and readers (if there are any), Welcome to my first blog post...ever! I know, I can't believe it either but here it is. So, as I was thinking about what to write and what people would actually want to take time out of their busy schedules to read, it brought me back to how this whole journey got started. While that was true, I've decided (after a few seconds of debate with my inner workings of my crazy mind) we aren't going to talk about that today. Why? ...because I kind of don't want to right now. Also, because I feel like those of you thinking of entering the process have your own idea of what it's like and honestly, you aren't too far off. What most people don't know is what happens after. That's where I come in! So, what happens after you apply, you ask? You get to be one of the many lucky people that get to enter into the abyss (note: connection to past post that got me started in the first place...see what I did there?). The abyss, for those new readers here, is a whole lot of...well, you guessed it, nothing. Now, nothing can be both good and bad. For those unlike me, you get a lot of stuff done. For example, you completely reorganize your room, you get to finish your undergrad career, you get to pretend to have a life outside of work. However, for those like me, the story is a little bit different. You, my fellow compatriots, get to be engulfed in self pity, you get to be unhinged due to nerves, and you begin questioning the meaning of life. If you think I'm exaggerating, think again! I could mention having a back up plan being formed in this time frame (it should be, by the way), but I've already written about that as well. So what happens in the abyss between self loathing and thinking about every possible contingency scenario? A whole lot of nothing. This is something you're going to be doing a lot of during this little waiting period between applying and hearing back with a decision. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. The reason why I'm writing about absolutely nothing is because it gives people a way to talk it out with someone other than that little voice in your head. That little voice that is beyond annoying and doesn't know the definition of the term "shut up". However, while the self loathing is almost inevitable during this time, there's also a small spark. If you're open enough to seeing it, that is. This spark reminds you of your true passions, whether it's what you plan to go to grad school for or something else entirely. This little spark allows you to see the path that you were meant to take and this little spark also reminds you of why you started. It's this moment that truly starts your journey into the future and it is this spark that will lead you to happiness. For some, it's barely visible. I'm a part of this group, sadly, but I know it's still there. For others, you get to be encompassed in a fiery blaze of glory and accomplishment. (Again, lucky you.) So enjoy it, no matter what group you're a part of. Enjoy the abyss because it's only in the darkest of times that one is able to see even the smallest amount of light. Follow your own path and enjoy every step of the journey because nothing easy is hardly ever worth achieving in the end. So, my fellow readers, welcome to the abyss and enjoy the darkness. I hope to hear from you all soon and thank you so much for reading. To all of you out there, I can't wait to see/hear how your journey ends. Sincerely, K.
  16. KayAnne14

    The Thing That Shall Not Be Named...

    Dearest Sseire, Let me just say that reading your comments have made my day!! I'm so glad that I have a fan like you and thank you so much for reading! It means the world to me to know that I'm actually getting through to people. BTW, I did in fact have to look up what a demoticist was...can I just say how cool that sounds?!?! Okay, I have a question for you then: in The Mummy (with Brendan Fraser of course, not that new Tom Cruise s..tuff), how accurate is what they are saying versus what they probably should be saying or is the Egyptian in the movie pretty accurate?? You don't know how long I've wanted to know the answer to this question... Also, even though I'm sure you're going to be an amazing Egyptologist (are they even close to similar?? Study of Egypt vs. the study of the ancient hieratic Egyptian language..), I'll be sure to hold you to that coffee one day! Plus, let's be honest here, I don't have the patience to become a princess. They're tooooo....high maintenance...but that's just my mini opinion! I cannot wait to see what the world has to offer you and I hope that you keep in touch in some way, shape, or form! Thanks for your reading!! K. P.S. YOU READ THE TAGS?!?!?!? SOMEONE FINALLLYYYYYYY READS THE TAGS!!!! PRAISES!!!
  17. KayAnne14

    So, you've entered the abyss...

    Aren't y'all just the sweetest people this fine and stressful world has to offer! Here's my response to the newest replies: Sgaw10, why do I feel like I'm should be reading this with a slight sarcastic attitude? Or is it just me? Hahaha anyways, thanks so much for reading!! Perpetualalligator, staaaahhpppp it. Your flattery will get you a comment and a response! Look at that...I think it just did! You are so sweet for actually wanting to read more of my rantings and ravings. And "wonderful human being"? I can't go that far but thank you for giving me my five seconds of mini fame hahaha! Thanks for reading! Dwar, I'm not sure if I should be impressed or worried that you have applied and even found 6 different grad schools you want to attend? I just barely found two (possibly three), but that's not the point. While it may have been impulsive shopping (and yes, it could be considered shopping), it goes for a good cause: your future. Therefore, at least it has a purpose, am I right? At least you're starting to like it more now than when you first applied! Good luck with school this semester, and thanks for reading! Well, guys and gals, thanks for reading my humble and crazy thoughts and replies! Hope everyone has a good night and thanks for reading! Hope to hear from you again soon. K.
  18. KayAnne14

    So, you've entered the abyss...

    Let me just take a quick few seconds to tell everyone, "thanks for reading and your replies!" ...they like me...they really like me... Okay, now that that's over with, time for my own remarks. First, I really do want to share my appreciation to everyone who is sharing how they feel and their thoughts on my little post. I know to some it may not mean much, but to me it really means a lot. Especially, when I know how busy everyone must be right about now. I'm not sure if some of you will ever actually see my replies, but here's hoping! Moods, seeing you quote me that much made me tear up! Okay, so I'm being a little dramatic, but oh well. I'm glad you remembered that you are not alone in this process so be sure not to get stuck in your own abyss for too long. Especially when you could be doing something with your friends and family...or sitting there reading my posts, if you're in to that sort of thing. I also am glad that you've started thinking about your back up plan for the "what if" and "if not" moments that tend to engulf the darkness when you least expect it. If you have any questions or would like to discuss something, I'm all ears!! Hope to hear from you again soon. Dwar, with family in the dentistry field, may I suggest a night guard? Just a friendly suggestion from your neighborhood blogger (are we even considered bloggers?). Also, thanks for reading! Synthema, don't you just love it when the brain decides to put in his unwanted two sense? Annoying!! Especially when it's clearly wrong! Well, Synthema, know that you are not alone. Even though your dream may not be of a fire breathing dragon, we each have our demons to fight (or wolves if you know the native legend/story). I know that we can't control our obnoxious anxiety which can sometimes get the better of us, but know that you always have an ear/eye here if you need anything! You've got your own pack and your own story to tell. Thanks so much for reading my silly little writing and I hope to hear from you again soon! CN0rd, let me just start off by saying (on the topic of the deadline not even passing yet): look at you getting your head in the game (no relation to the old High School Musical song)! I'm so proud of you! Side note: enjoying the abyss? I know I am...not. I love your back up plan! Living with a best friend is both amazing and can be slightly difficult depending on each other's living habits, but I lived with my bff for a while and I absolutely loved it! I can't wait to see what the future has in store for you and thank you so much for quoting me! It's amazing to know that my writing was able to reach people and help them at least discuss what they are going through. I hope to hear from you again soon! Well, everyone, that's about it for now! Thank you all for reading and check out some of my other posts that are both (in my unprofessional opinion) humorous and thoughtful...if that's even the word I'm trying to go for right now. Thanks so much for the replies, quotes, votes (don't really know what that is yet, but thanks anyways), and likes! Try to share it with friends who might need the same advice! I'm slightly curious to see how far this article/blog/forum can reach in time. Have a great night! K.
  19. KayAnne14

    GRE, WTFreak?!

    For those poor, unfortunate souls taking the GRE, I bid you good luck! I few of my friends have asked me for advice and such regarding the test, to which I replied, "run away." But alas, we cannot. In fact, we have to go towards it, but no one said you had to run. In fact, take a moment to look at the actual test dates near you. Go on. But come back! You have more to read. Did you look? No? You little rebel, you! The point in looking is to better help you create a timeline. This will come in handy, believe me! If you're like me, then you have to work around your job, your family responsibilities, and pretending to have a life outside of the grad school process. The timeline helps you juggle all that with your study time. My next little piece of advice: buy a study guide! This is probably one of the most important out of everything I may, or may not, tell you in the next five minutes. Don't just buy a three year old study guide and expect it to be the same, because it won't be and you'll just end up wasting your money. Go to your local bookstore (and don't try to tell me you don't have one, I can pretend to know you better than that) and take a little while to actually skim through the different GRE study guides they have to offer. I'm going to suggest to be on the lookout for two different things: 1) make sure the main one you get goes into detail explaining all the little things on EVERY section of the exam, and 2) invest in a smaller book/set of flashcards they might have to improve your GRE vocabulary. I know that may seem a bit strange but it helped me loads!! What next? You actually have to study. I know it may seem hard to believe, and you may be the type who is reading this and thinking, "I never studied before so why should I start now?" To that I reply with (and please read in the most sarcastic voice you have in your mental arsenal): if that were truly the case, you wouldn't be sitting there reading this now. Don't be a jerk, and study. Think about it, you're spending a couple of hundred on the exam, so why not study so you don't have to double your money and retake it? Don't be an idiot. Plan accordingly and make the most out of the time you have. Even if you aren't taking the exam for 5 - 6 months down the line, the time goes by so fast so work hard and achieve greatness like I know you can! Advice during the actual testing? Take a moment to calm yourself down before the testing actually begins. I, obviously, did not do this and ended up giving myself a nosebleed before the testing began so take it from someone who knows and pray you don't end up like me. That being said, I did score pretty good on my GRE, but that's beside the point. Close you eyes, take a few deep breaths, and kill that sucker! Then let me know your experiences so that I don't feel so bad about mine. :p Good luck! K.
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