This is a complicated post. I am anticipating some brutally honest responses which will hopefully be constructive. I'm also anticipating some rude ones.
First, I'm an escort. I have a bachelors in English literature from an average sized state school in Washington State. Outside the west coast my school doesn't matter to anybody. After I graduated I was a teaching assistant in Spain for a year and then came home and worked as a technical writer. Then I became a whore. Now I'm still a whore, and damn good at it, but stuck in a masters program in English studies where I did my undergraduate degree. It's a terrible idea. I'm aware.
My undergraduate profile is as follows:
Associates degree: 2.9 Lol.
The second two years of my major: 3.4
I had a fat athletic scholarship which is why I went to this school instead of a bigger one. I'm graduating from my current MA program early because I need to get the fuck out of this city but also because I do not, DO NOT, want to do a PhD in the humanities. I don't think that's the right thing for me to do. One thing I've learned from escorting is that it's hard work that earns success not necessarily brains. There isn't anything exceptional about my clients except that they picked a goal and worked towards it. I have never been good at this. I come from white trash and hardly graduated high school.
I am DYING to start over. At age 24 (almost 25) I have a small window of time to do so as I don't have any children (and don't want any for another decade), have a good amount of money saved, no debt, and am able to relocate anywhere in the world (happily so).
I want to do a PhD in economics. How the FUCK do I get into a decent program? Are there any postbacs I should be aware of? There are a few in the US and obviously there are good schools that offer them. There are conversion diplomas in the UK (the University of London Birbeck for example).
Thoughts? Anybody do this? Am I doomed?
I believe it's important to be realistic. But it's also important to listen to the heart and trust the gut. I know I can do this.
But what's the best route?