I figured that if I'm having a freakout, I should probably have it on a freakout forum. Thank you, grad cafe.
What follows contains a bit of narcissistic whining. But, hey, we're grad students here. We're used to it.
So at the last possible moment I decided between my top two schools, and have been regretting it ever since. Here are the offers I got:
NYU English, 22k, five years funding, two years TAing sections of a lecture class
University of Washington English, 14k, five years funding, teaching 2nd, 3rd, 4th years. Opportunities to teach junior and senior level courses in the 3rd and 4th year.
The reason I ended up ultimately going with the University of Washington was out of paranoia about going on the job market with so little teaching experience, even though I know that as a rule the profession privileges research over teaching. Also, I felt more of that "home feeling about the UW than NYU while on my campus visit, but, well, that's possibly due to a complicating factor. I grew up in Seattle, see. Lived there until I was 22. Even (oh, man, did I just hose my career?) did my BA at the UW, though I've been away for several years (two of which were at another school getting my MA).
And do I really want to live back in Seattle for another five years? Before I did campus visits (and, admittedly, before I found out that there wasn't any individual teaching at NYU and wouldn't be any time soon, due to the administration not wanting to give grad students leverage for another strike), I was dead certain that I would be at NYU next year. Woo! Getting to live in New York! Getting paid enough to sort of survive, provided I live over in Jersey or way out in the outer boroughs! NYU! Big name school, sorta! Heck, it's where Felicity went!
A couple of times over the last two weeks I've been very, very close to asking NYU if they could reopen the offer, even though I know that I most likely wouldn't be doing myself any favors asking. But... it's nagging me still, especially since I was able to get an extension on the April 15th deadline from them -- they said that they weren't going to be grabbing anyone off the waitlist, so I wasn't keeping anyone from getting a spot by delaying. Gosh, what should I do?