Hey thanks for reading. I'm in a bioscience Phd program and i joined a lab about 9 months ago.
1, One of my senior colleagues (by a yr) is an obvious racist $%@# who's idea of good work jokes always involves racial stereotypes which i've had to grin at or brush off so i don't come off as the african kid who can't take a joke.
2, Worse however is that this colleague of mine worked on my project for a year generated nothing negative or positive that i'm aware off and then switched projects. I picked up this project when i joined the lab and generated genuine negative data which isn't BS but is just unpublishable because its negative data. 3months ago my Boss gets in a pinch because our lab has been dragging this project for almost 2 years and grant reviewers were probably hustling him especially because he is newer P.I and my boss decides to put another senior colleague in my lab (a friendlier fella who has another project and was then an md student on a 1yr research leave) on my project and now not only does it become a love triangle, i became somewhat in my perspective an ugly third wheel, progress on the now collaborative project could now be planned without my input e.t.c. I protested very politely as i always do about my desire to maintain ownership of this project sink or swim and was assured that the project will remain mine, once a first publication was forced out (probably to placate grant reviewer or auditors w/e they are called) but whenever i left my boss office after the "nice chats" i felt that i had just been put on another BS treadmill. Well my collaborator then decides to go for the md/phd (which is smart because he's skilled in research) and this suddenly complicates my situation exponentially.
Hence i feel totally mind-@#$%ed and i'm about to lose it. i'm up at 3 am thinking about this crap, my self confidence is honesty shot to shits
And while friends are great i'm 27 i need a bloody career more than i need friends now.
My Boss of course has a prerogative to run his lab how he deems but i need a career and third wheeling my project isn't my idea of a career building exercise and i've honestly questioned his capacity to look out for my interest (which is really sad because he's a nice fella)
I've already begun making contingency plans for quitting. What do you guys think.
