This is wonderful. I think it is a little too easy, particularly when enrolled in stressful graduate programs, to allow that stress to manifest as pointed anxiety about benchmark decisions. But building up the meaning of these results doesn't serve us very well, as receiving an award or or not is distinct from any measure of self-worth. Thanks, iheartplants, for the reminder. Time to do some reframing :-) The worst that happens is that nothing changes, and disappointment will pass in time. Feeling better about the wait already!