Medule

I am currently a first year Ph.D. student and though I've only been in the program a month, I can tell it is not the one for me. And now I am so torn! I want to apply to new programs, but I don't know how to email professors or write on my SOP that I don't like my program and want to change. It is a great program, I know it is super good for what it does, but it just isn't the right fit for me. Has anyone else transferred Ph.D. programs, or know someone in their program who has? I'm nervous to come across as a program hopper or something like that, but I can't do the research I want to do or study the things I really want to study within the program I'm in. Do I just drop out and apply to new schools as though it didnt happen? I have so much anxiety about this.

Yuuuuup. I've been rejected from 5 out of my 6 schools. Been out of my Masters program for 3 years now..... I'm tired and sad and contemplating selling organs just because. My organs, not someone else's.

I wish MyFitnessPal had a "Stress eating" option where you select "Stress eating" and it just....ignores that day, as if it never happened.

Yep. Just got my fourth rejection in a row. Going to hit the gym tonight. I wonder if I can log "crying softly into my pillow" under workout activities on MyFitnessPal.com...