FreudianSip

Is anyone else as sad as I am? I know other more deserving people won and I'm happy for them, but still very sad. I've never really won or been recognized for anything, and winning this would have been the solution to my financial problems (my TA stipend is not something I can live on) and a solution to how much I dislike teaching. 
Most of my comments were about how I haven't published enough to be competitive with other 2nd year grad students. I've done what I can with the resources available to me in my program, but I can't compete with people at wealthy universities on research grants. 

Is anyone else as sad as I am? I know other more deserving people won and I'm happy for them, but still very sad. I've never really won or been recognized for anything, and winning this would have been the solution to my financial problems (my TA stipend is not something I can live on) and a solution to how much I dislike teaching. 
Most of my comments were about how I haven't published enough to be competitive with other 2nd year grad students. I've done what I can with the resources available to me in my program, but I can't compete with people at wealthy universities on research grants. 

Is anyone else as sad as I am? I know other more deserving people won and I'm happy for them, but still very sad. I've never really won or been recognized for anything, and winning this would have been the solution to my financial problems (my TA stipend is not something I can live on) and a solution to how much I dislike teaching. 
Most of my comments were about how I haven't published enough to be competitive with other 2nd year grad students. I've done what I can with the resources available to me in my program, but I can't compete with people at wealthy universities on research grants. 

Ok finally de-lurking to join the waiting game. Good luck everybody! I'm 2nd year grad so this is my last (and first) shot. Do we have any data from previous years about # of applicants per discipline?