partypope

I'm an international student applying to masters programs in Canada. I have been doing everything I can to make myself a viable candidate for the past two years, but it feels like it isn't enough. I have applied to four schools, and three of them have sent me rejection letters. I'm just waiting on the last one now (UBC) but I really feel at this stage that there is no hope for me, and it is getting hard to handle. It's not just the stress of waiting, but the dawning realisation that I will not be able to pursue what I have dedicated myself to, that I was not able to convince those universities that I am good enough. I know there's always next round, I can do a working holiday until then and try to make some money and connections. I cannot help but feel crushed at the prospect of getting 100% rejections though. I think a lot of the stress comes from not knowing how you are going to be feeling a couple of hours, days, weeks from now depending on when you get that email. If I get an acceptance at the 11th hour, I will be the happiest I have ever been. If it's another rejection, it will be really rough for a while. Being in the limbo state between the two is the worst part.