Hi
I'm from the UK, and just started a PhD in the US. Already I am pretty sure that it's not for me, though, and I want to apply to start again in the UK or elsewhere in Europe next year. This might seem hasty, but there are a few reasons:
- I had no idea grad school would take so long here. I took advice from an old American Prof. I had (who therefore went through grad school decades ago) who told me to expect 5-6 years, with a year or two off as I was entering with a 2 year M.A. My new department also told me before I came that I would be expected to go through much quicker since I already have 5 semesters of graduate level work (and an 80,000 word thesis) under my belt. As it turns out, though, I can only waive a couple of courses, and average completion time here seems to be 7-8 years. That last part might not be a shock to Americans reading this, but I have friends on very highly rated programmes in the UK, Germany, Holland and Australia who will get a PhD in 3-4 years (in fact they might get thrown off the programme if they don't finish in 4). The difference, I suppose, is that outside the US you generally have to enter with a masters, which substitutes for the initial coursework component on a US PhD (though you still have to do some methods training). I realise that I for a job in the US an American PhD is a big advantage, but I'm not intending to work in the US anyway, and anywhere else (except maybe Canada) a European one is seen as just as valuable. I'm also on the older side for just starting grad school, and don't want to be looking for a first job at 40. Though some of the courses I'm taking are interesting, I feel more or less ready to begin the dissertation, and feel like instead I'm in effect being asked to do a second masters, which makes me feel like I'm wasting my time. The level in the classes also isn't great as many people are straight out of undergrad and so in some cases have never even sat in a seminar before. I feel as though, therefore, that going to Europe to do my PhD suit me much better at this stage of my academic career.
- I had heard that US sociology tended towards the quantitative, and so made sure I picked a department which had people working with a variety of methods. Upon arriving though, I've realised that the dominance of stats is such over here that we grad students all have to undertake extensive training on quantitative stuff (at least three mandatory courses) even if we aren't planning on using it in the future. Now, again I understand this might not seem a big deal to American students, and I understand it's probably necessary in order to get a job over here- but again, this doesn't apply to me. Secondly, I also realise it's necessary to at least understand all major methodological approaches, but so much (at the expense of others- I'd like to do some complexity theory, or network analysis, which I won't have chance to) seems like a waste of time for me in particular. It also means that regression is considered the default method, meaning this dominates discourse around the discipline. This was a shock to me, coming from an M.A where not one person in my cohort used regression models in their thesis. This was a very prestigious M.A, it's just that the terrain of the discipline is considered pretty differently in Europe. I obviously feel like I don't fit in very well with the way things work in the US in this regard. I now realise, I think, why I didn't get into a lot of schools in the US- I got accepted to Oxford in the UK (but couldn't get funding) but not some 15-30 ranked schools in the US, and couldn't figure out why- now I think it is because of my lack of stats background and relatively unimpressive score on the quantitative part of the GRE. So I ended up at a middle ranking US school, when, if I can find funding, I'm pretty sure my academic record would get me into a top 10-15 programme somewhere in the EU.
- Lastly, my parents' health is getting steadily worse, and now realising how long I would be away for if I stay here, I am thinking more and more that I would prefer to be at home sooner rather than later (or at least within a 2 hour, 50 euro flight of it, as opposed to an 8 hour, $500 flight at the moment).
So, really I am not posting to ask whether I should stay or not as I have more or less made up my mind. I am instead asking for advice about how to handle it. I would be applying in the next month or so, but have been told by several people that I don't need letters from my current department for this as it's too early for them to know me anyway. This means I possibly could apply without telling them anything. I don't want to go behind anyone's back though, and feel I should be honest about my situation. The question is when? While I won't have decisions until just after the beginning of next semester, does there seem any point to me continuing next here semester? It might look better on my C.V if I do a full year, but in any case are the school going to realistically want me to stay if I tell them I want to be elsewhere before next semester starts? I have a T.Aship, but they have a surplus of T.As and so I don't think they would miss me from that angle, probably they would prefer to save the money if they know I am not going to be around after the first year.
In the end, I don't want to annoy people, and I realise that, even being here for one semester I am eating up funds which, if I leave, have basically been thrown away from the point of view of the department. I am really wondering what the best thing to tell them is, and when is the best time to say it, to try and make the process as smooth as possible. Any suggestions are very much appreciated as, obviously, I can't talk to people here about any of this.
Thanks!