thank you all for empathizing with me-- it feels encouraging to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way. I'm going to bounce back and move onto my next project. Wishing the best for all of your scientific endeavors ?
If you weren't awarded, how are you dealing with it? I keep telling myself that my worth is not dependent on this fellowship, but I can't help but think that this is indicative of my scientific capabilities. I'm also reminding myself of everything I'm already grateful for, but part of me wants to just mope around and be sad for a week.
One of my rec letter writers was my advisor, so I was able to get her something personalized-- a particular planner with all the criterias I knew she wanted. But with my other two writers, I mailed them thank you letters with a small gift. I applied under chemistry, so I got them some coffee mugs in the shape of beakers.