Heart, I am in the same situation. It looks like it'll be a year off -- maybe more. I blew a lot of money on this and it'll take a while to recoup the savings. Of course, one can say, "if one wants something bad enough, then..." and keep trying, but I had a pretty tough first year of undergrad (some time ago, though, and I went on to earn two MAs despite that) and I often wonder if those grades will forever keep me out of programs. You know, sifting through 200 applications, you have to have some way of winnowing them down, and I have the equivalent of a giant splotch on my transcript there. Shame to have something you did at 18 follow you deep into one's future...but that's the case for a lot of life, I suppose.
Well, I'm sure if Wittgenstein were alive, he'd tell me that I really ought to do something a bit more useful, anyway. Maybe I'll move to Sils Maria.