Amythustos

Thank you for this. This is my first time ever posting on any kind of forum, despite the fact that I've been obsessively scouring the results page and laughing at the ways we try to cope with waiting. I am terribly frightened of what may happen if I get rejected across the board. I have a really low undergrad GPA (below a 3), an MFA from a really well-known program, great GRE score, but my SOP seems vague and rushed to me and I don't know. There's steep competition for the few creative writing PhDs out there. I've been totally alone the past six months, working seven days, fifty hours a week and spending a third of my income applying to twelve schools, residencies. Live alone, single, sober, bulimic, nonexistent social life. Waiting has been very difficult. I don't expect a program to heal wounds, but it would be a blessing to be within a community of shared interests again and to have the time to write. One of my former students recently emailed me for advice about graduating. He says, "I wake up hopeful every morning and go to bed terrified." Long, resounding "ditto". So thank you, psychic poster. Good luck to everybody -- may we all get what we need to find some internal sustenance.