I know I have went thru a roller coaster of hope for some news all week, and it has left me deflated. Since this is my first year applying, this process is beginning to feel surreal, like we never will be notified. Honestly, I've been legitimately waiting since the ides of march, 24 days and counting, and I'm starting to think I died and this forum is Jean Paul Sartre's "No Exit". The people aren't hell, but my existence is somehow dependent on the NSF...or perhaps Descartes had it wrong; it should be "I doubt they'll post today, therefore I wait, therefore I am."