Hello! Sid here, and I think I need some direction.
I'm going into my senior year as an English/French major, and while I've greatly enjoyed following my passions for the past four years, I'm a bit too cynical to think I'll be able to write the next great American novel (then translate it into French), then magically make it pay bills. (And no, becoming a teacher does not appeal. I've never been good with kids, and I firmly believe that those who do not like kids should not try to earn a living teaching them.) I resigned myself to publishing, but the other night I had an epiphany: public relations. It seems like something I might actually be good at and find exciting.
However, I know so little about the field as a whole, and grad school (which my parents have always regarded as a given, considering my majors) is not the place to go explorin'. It's the place to commit to what you want to do. However, if I don't go to grad school, I'd have no idea what I'd be doing. I enjoy school. I enjoy learning. Hell, there's even the possibility of becoming a professor (which has always sounded appealing) and teaching at the university level. But I don't know what to do or how to make up my mind.
I know internships is going to the response, and rightfully so. But right now I'm waiting on hearing back from a publishing internship I applied to months ago. I was recommended for it by a friend of the family, so I'd feel bad making other plans when the interviewer seemed to like me, but if I don't get it for the summer I'd really, really like to explore a public relations internship. I'm just not sure what to do, and suddenly everything seems to be happening so fast. Please help.
PS: As far as spending money on school, I'm very fortunate in that my parents are not only capable of, but insist on supporting me financially through grad school. My mother is actually quite adamant that I should go. Trust me, I feel enormous guilt over my indecision and the cost it could have for them.
