I should know better than to respond, but regarding the last two posts, things I actually did NOT do:
1) State that the person who got the fellowship only won it because of some underrepresentation. I happen to think the person in question is unbelievably smart.
2) Make any normative claim (good, bad) about a policy that may or may not exist whereby factors other than the rating sheets determine funding.
3) State that I think the person who got the fellowship deserves it less than I do.
4) Reveal my race -- why do you suppose I'm a white guy?
5) Hang myself on a cross of any sort. (That would be terribly dramatic.)
Things I DID do:
1) Convey an observation that I do not understand.
Maybe I sounded more bitter than I meant. Anyway I think it is now cleared up! So thanks!