Hi all,
Four years ago I applied to a number of top Ph.D. programs in English. I was accepted to one of them and have spent the past three years in this program. Unfortunately, I was very unhappy there: due to a variety of significant factors, both academic and personal, it was just a rough time for me and I finally made the decision to leave. Yes, I know -- if I was so unhappy, why did it take me three years to make this decision? My answer comes down mostly to a tragically stubborn "I'm no quitter" attitude and fear of failure. And so my first piece of advice is: please, don't make this mistake. Even if you're accepted to only one program, however prestigious and highly ranked, don't waste time there if you feel it's a poor fit.
In my particular situation, my decision to leave involved the realization that I was not only at the wrong school, but also in the wrong field. I majored in English as an undergraduate, but I also had a minor in French and studied German. My passion at the time was 19th-century British literature, and so I became absolutely determined to pursue a Ph.D. in English. What I understand now is that I should have taken a step back and considered my strong interest in foreign languages. I really wish I had, because it probably would have led me to think seriously about a Ph.D. in Comparative Literature. My second piece of advice: be very careful in selecting your field, especially if you have various other "secondary" concentrations as an undergraduate. Getting a Ph.D. entails specializing, so think hard before you do.
Now I would appreciate your advice (and hopefully support). I want to apply this year to Ph.D. programs in Comparative Literature with an emphasis on the 19th-century European novel. Despite my negative first experience in graduate school, I know I want a career in academia. I'm a scholar; I can't imagine doing anything else. My concern is that the programs I apply to will wonder about my three misspent years. Especially since I didn't even get an M.A. (long story...please don't ask). I have a strong background in languages: during my time as a graduate student at [nightmare school] I passed my Ph.D. language requirement exam in French at the level of "Fluency" and also took a graduate seminar in French, for which I received an A. I have a few semesters of undergraduate German under my belt, although it's a bit rusty. Finally, I love Russian literature, but I've only really read it in translation. I plan to take a course or two at some point this year. Does this language background make me competitive?
Do you have any suggestions for how to explain my academic background in a personal statement? Also, I have a question with regard to my writing sample: using some material from a 25-page paper (from my graduate-level French seminar) on Madame Bovary, I want to incorporate Anna Karenina. Would that be okay, given that I can only discuss it in translation?
Thank you in advance.