Hello
I’m going to try to keep this as brief as possible.
I’ve never really felt irresistibly motivated to do much of anything, but something that has held more than a passing interest for me is psychology.
I don’t believe that I could handle dealing with anyone really mentally ill. I’ve had some experience with mental illness in the family and have only ever felt helpless. I would hope that getting a degree would solve the layman’s dilemma of what do you tell the person who believes everyone is reporting their every move to the doctor, who is going to have them killed, and they can smell the poison gas coming through the ducts now. However, I still find the idea of working with the true mental illness unsettling.
In a perfect world I would picture myself working in marriage and couples counseling with special interest in intimacy issues and sexual trauma, but I admit that I don’t have enough exposure to all the potential options to know anything for sure at this time.
I completed a 2 year degree in an unrelated field a few years ago and my intention is to return to school early next year. My dilemma is concerns where my long term focus should lie. I am terribly confused and conflicted by what I have read about psychology in general and what level of education is a good fit for what I want to do.
I feel like I should be focused on getting a PhD in counseling (I like the idea of having the capacity to open my own practice), but a Master’s in counseling could be enough to get me into something interesting. The more I read about people who have experience in the education and employability aspects the more it seems that it is a hopeless cause. I’ve been left feeling like a Master’s is a debt bomb that won’t get me any closer to a satisfying job and that a PhD is probably impossible. Not to mention that it will leave me old, poor, and still unemployable. With all the bad word of mouth I feel like I should run away as fast as possible and insert myself unhappily into the nearest avaialble Mcjob.
I don’t really know anyone who has been successful in much of anything that involves more than a high school diploma so I have to reach out to people who have actually accomplished something in the direction I want to go and in this case that means you.
There are many more things that spring to mind to add to this but I think including them is only going to run the risk of rambling further and further off track.
Thank you for your time.