Jicito

Ok. Today I feel awful, so I'll just share it to you to find some pain relief. I applied only to four schools (NYU, CUNY, Columbia and NSSR... yes, obsessed with NYC). CUNY rejected me early on Feb 6. A "nice email", as many say. And all my optimism crumbled, since it was my best fit. My entire summa cum laude MA thesis was based on the work of some CUNY's faculty members. Had excellent LoR's (one of them from my thesis advisor who is close to some faculty members), a 3.9 GPA in my MA, a profesionally proofread writing sample about my thesis (I'm an international applicant from a non English speaking country), an almost perfect TOEFL (115), and an average GRE (though an awesome 165 in quantitive). I'm starting to think that my SOP sucked. A month later, I haven't heard anything about Columbia or NYU (yeah, no interviews, no "POIs"). And I'm learning to accept that this means rejection. Some said to me "hey, cheer up, no news are good news", "it ain't over 'till the fat lady sings", but I've seen the patterns in the results forum and actually in this case seems that "no news are rejection news". But, yeah, lets wait. I hope that my applications' fee at least buy me a rejection email. So, NSSR is now my last hope. And it kills me to think that I didn't submitted a strong application there, but I guess maybe it's just my current pesimism. My life-partner was admitted today to a program in NYC. So I'm feeling a terrible pressure. :-(