PhD applicant

Nah, I don't have an MA. I wanted to get into one of those programs that take BAs, but I think there were too many awesome MAs out there. Although, when I look at some of them, I'm not sure exactly what credentials they have over me other than an MA. In any case, I think it's too soon after my shutout to consider re-applying so fast. I need to process. It's a good thought though, I didn't know there were spring admission seasons. There's some stuff I need to think about concerning my shutout; reasons it may have happened, etc. I'm a planner so I already had a plan in place, I mean, a list in place for this possible future. In fact, I am at this moment drafting one of said papers for future publication. It was like 1) Shutout, 2) Finish grading papers, 3) Move on and publish something. That's how today went. and a gif

To be honest, I feel a little free. I have so many paper ideas and professors willing to co-author with me I think I can publish a few things over the next year. Maybe I can visit some relations, etc. It isn't so bad. Mostly just depressing that I couldn't keep pushing forward with dreams and shit. Like the world is like 'fuck your dreams'. and a gif

It's funny to say "really enjoy" because these freshman papers are real shit. So "really enjoy" is sort of like... I mean, I guess I don't even know what's so enjoyable about it. It's a funny thing. It's not like reading terrible logical moves or bad spelling and grammar turn me on. I don't know how to put it.

No, I don't think they're lame for not knowing. I think they're lame for taking offense when none was intended. There's a lot of that, not just on this forum, but in this world. And I will think it is lame no matter who uses it. I don't care if comes from people of my own gender or religious beliefs. It's ugly and I don't think it serves any purpose when we claim to be people who know how to hold rational arguments. I couldn't remember the reference when he made the comment, but I took no offense by it, because I knew he did not intend any. Also, a gif.

I'm sitting here grading papers and reflecting on the fact that my shut-out might mean that my life turns in a direction that I may never get to do this again and I am extremely depressed about this. I've had some freedom to lesson plan this semester and I had a lot of fun doing that. I did a lot of research over the break to be ready for it, and I have little issues, hurdles, teaching problems that I'm learning from and I'm glad I got to do this, because it was something new and frankly, I just love to learn new things. It's hard for me to find things that really challenge me anymore. So I'm totally bummed, and I don't know what's going to happen in the future. I'm not sure if I'll reapply. I really thought I was going to end up teaching little freshmens Plato, or trying to break their minds and force them to think. But now I don't know what I'm going to do. I hope you guys enjoy your lesson planning. I had hella fun. This teaching thing is a bitch of a challenge but I love it and I'm glad I got the opportunity even if it never happens again.

I think most of his comments are horrible just being read. If I were to guess who did it, I don't think they are people who asked for a patch, so that's okay then. Also, I don't care that much. I'm not into grudging on people. I just keep in my mind that they're lame. Also, a gif.

Careful, that sounds like logic to me.

Yes, yes it is... I think I've become a gif-posting monster...

I actually got upset when that comment got downvoted because I'm tired of the 'quick to jump down people's throats' around here. It's really exhausting, and I hope I never end up at school with certain people, because I'm sure they have to be some sort of obnoxious in person. Edit: must add gif now...

I know this sound lame, but I would love to just teach philsophy 101, warping young minds sounds so exciting to me.

(Forgot to include an extra gif in my last post.)

Well, I was actually thinking about the sex trade. I just don't like being around that stuff.

I'm holding on to the stupid hope that the only place I haven't heard from yet has me on a secret waitlist or something but they have already sent out their acceptances, so I'm just being stupid really. I know I've learned a lot that I'm going to use to kick the ass out of the next cycle, that's for sure. You count. I feel really bad for those of us who aren't in a financial place to live off parents, trust funds, friends, relations, or savings, etc. And lastly, a gif.

Hi, lets be losers together. What are your plans, now that you know you suck? I have decided I'm going to be so awesome they will feel stupid later for rejecting me. What do you think you will be doing? I suspect for some of you this involves alcohol... Also, I like to post gifs, so I think I will post gifs of loser-ness in this thread...

I guess you had a rougher time than me... here's a smiley to make you feel better.

And I will add cookies to previous cookie offers already in this thread. So that's grape juice (greencoloredpencil), drinks (Platonist), and cookies (me and someone else I can't remember who) to anyone who declines their extra acceptances and waitlists. I love you!!

Yeah, underdrag is too cool for me. But I think efforts on a good writing sample, etc. should be rewarded, so I'm glad you were, underdrag. Edit: unless you're just pretending you got into everywhere to shame us... then you're a punk.

Bold type: is that normal? Does this happen to a lot of people? I'm just curious how common that is, if anyone has any information about that. Please comment.

I've just been using tips from YouTube videos about how to sing to make a lot of noise here, hoping to disturb my neighbors with my bad singing. It's oddly relaxing, making lots of bad singing noises, over and over.

I just had a phone call from someone surprising me from a spontaneous trip out of state. I saw an unrecognized out-of-state number and almost had a heart attack of happiness. I got all ready to say "hey, I totally accept your offer, WOOT!" Then I hear my dad on the other end and I'm like 'fuck you'. Edit: I mean, I didn't really say 'fuck you' to my dad. But I was totally thinking it. Almost had a heart attack. For serious.

I'm also curious about this whole thing, I wasn't really focused on working with anyone in particular so I wonder how they'll end up hooking up people like me.

Crap, no one told me that. What does that mean? I think I better go check my paper...

I love the creator of gif images. I don't know what I'd do with the past five minutes without them.

I tend to free-write on the topic first and see what happens - this is only because I usually start with an idea that I really like and have a lot of strange ideas about how to argue it. So I'll see what sort of arguments just fall out of my head that way. Then I try to do what the professors tell me: Write out the logical premises and etc.; you know, the not fun part. Then reconstruct, expand, revise, peer-review, repeat.

The really sad part is... and I was just thinking about this today- When people are all young and cocky like that, they really are capable of coming up with some really good ideas, but they lack the discipline to give them proper presentation. So let's say dfindley's book/s contain some of the most brilliant things ever said for the first time ever in human history. The fact that he won't hear criticism without using profanity in return will prevent him from learning to edit and distill down his **potentially** good ideas into what is proper writing and proper argumentative format. I feel strongly that striking while the iron is hot (so to speak) is valuable, but needs to be guided and nurtured properly. I think he wasn't given the proper lead by some compassionate and helpful faculty the way some of us have been. Either that, or he allowed his ego to prevent him from learning to control what could have potentially been real talent. I say this only because I have a lot of respect for people who can sit down and finish something that large (volume-wise). I know people who write books - badly written books that will never be 'published' - but I still respect their ability to finish something, because I know how hard it is for me to write something that long. At the same time I feel pity because I know my ability to craft with language is better than theirs. So it seems to me there was some great neglect done at some point to someone who really has the drive to contribute something and the ability to produce it faster than I could. I have a lot of respect for the passion, but I think control and discipline are much harder to learn. I just hope people like that don't give up over time because we all have so much fun making fun of them. I hope you see this dfindley; you've been a great punching bag, but I don't mean to imply that you should stop trying.