Hi there,
I am not sure if there are any postdocs following gradcafe? I have been struggling with this issue for quite some time now (3 years), I am desperate, frustrated and thinking about quitting my job.
I have been working as a postdoc with an international Professor for about 3 years now. Ever since I started she hasn't allowed me to publish ANYTHING as first author. Everytime I bring it up she either threatens to fire me or tells me that the order does not mater in academia. I have attended several orientations regarding authorship and I know it does matter.
The situation is the following: Everytime I come up with an idea, I do all the work to get results. The other scenario is that I am working/ collaborating on some project with other departments and doing all the work. Once she sees that it is in fact something interesting, without telling me she would start writting a paper about it and then just tell me to write the abstract. Meaning that she is the 1st author and I could be maybe co-author… Ah! and if I dare to say anything about it the answer is: "if you don't like it that's the door". Really?? I have already been told this twice and it is just too much and such poor judgement on her part.
I am sick and tired of her doing this over and over and me getting threaten to get fired every single time I bring it up. Is this normal? Does anyone know what can I do about it? I am trying to get out of here and away from her. I have applied for Assistant Professor positions, but the first thing they tell me is that I don't have enough publications… of course I don't, because I can't!
Should I address this with the head of the department? I thought about doing so but I think I would come off as problematic and they might just take her side since she is a full Prof. I feel that this anger towards him is giving me at least an ulcer or something.
Please advise me if there is anything I can do besides meditation (hehe). I would really appreciate any suggestions.
Thank you!