smwentum

I have a problem I was wondering, if you all had some inventive ideas or a lot of money to give me, either would be fine. I applied to 5 schools, lets call them A,B,C,D,E In march I was accepted to A and B. B, was my second choice, and C was my first, even though I hadn't heard anything from C for the longest time, I had a kind of settled on the idea of going to B. I was correct in that assumption, because I did get rejected from C but that was fine, and I also got rejected from D with in a few days of each other. So your asking, what's the problem, just go to B right? Well hears the thing I asked A, and B about my funding, like last, week because it had been a while since i had heard anything from them, and they just told me they weren't going to give me funding. I was really shocked, and pretty hurt at the same time. They didn't really give me a reason, they just said they weren't going to give me funding. On the same day, in the same set of new emails, I got another email from E, telling me that I had gotten accepted to their, program, but with no funding. Now I was supper pissed, because I just had not seen this coming, I asked the director at E why I didn't get funded, and he said that "We liked you a lot, as person, but you don't have of A's in your advanced mathematics courses", which is true, but it feels like at the same time, why not just reject me from the program, if grades were such a big issue, then why accept me in the first place. Then he went on to say that "we will make a final decision about your funding, once we see your final grades from this semester," This experience has left pretty bitter to be honest :twisted: , a lot of the people that I talked to before I applied to grad school said, that especially for math and the other hard sciences, that it's pretty much guaranteed, that if you were to be accepted to a school that you would be funded, I guess I am finding out this is not the case the hard way. I didn't apply for external fellowships, because of this reason, and I am guessing I would have had a hard time getting any because of my grades. I think this experience has skewed my perspective on grad school because, even if I go, it will feel like, that the program didn't really wanted me (or believe that I couldn't get through the program), I know that its hard enough just to be accepted, for them to pull this crap and say they are not going to fund me is a lot worse. Maybe the guy was right, if my grades weren't that good from undergrad, then they will be even worse when I try to make the jump to grad school. In any case if I don't get funding from anywhere I do have a few options anyway 1. Just go and shell out the money, and apply for fellowships in graduate school (which seems like a bad idea) 2. Just wait a year, take more classes and apply again, (I could try doing that, but after this time of applying I don't know if would really want to) 3. Just quit, and just get a job, or finish up another degree (ie finish my minor and comp sci or the other one in psychology) (it just seems like a bad idea, I really like math, and after all the stuff, of working on this stuff for 2-3 yeas, 2 confrences and a REU If you all had some inventive ideas, or a lot of money to give me either would be fine, thank you for reading.