Wjy can't I enjoy the happy fantasies, knowing they are just that? Much better than sickening my self on unhappy fantasies, which are also unreal.
This round of applications is the trial run, used to confront logistical problems and to better understand my weaknesses...ahem. This is how I comfort myself.and yet it's true. I've aimed very high. Acceptance is a long shot. But this way, by applying, and even getting one interview request back, I at least understand the path better, and it will have less emotional charge next year....