I am freaking out too. I got my first rejection the other day, and since then all I can see is the worst-case scenario. I am down to a self-pity puddle. I found this forum a few days ago, and I can't say it's making me feel any better. It only serves to show me all the things I did wrong and all the people out there who are way better than me (you even might be one of them). But hopefully you, and even I will get in somewhere, maybe not just anywhere, but a place where we can really thrive. And then, we will look back at this and laugh at our self-doubt and wish we didn't second guess ourselves.