getting into any phd program (not to mention with funding!) is no small feat!! that is super awesome and impressive that you were accepted with a 4 year fellowship! i was super super bummed out about not getting into my top choice gender studies program, and after talking to both profs and students who have gone through the process, it seems that rejections do not mean you are not qualified, but that the program was just not the perfect fit, and that they can't nurture your research. i think programs do a good job of sorting out who belongs where. if you were accepted to a phd program you are obviously qualified, and everything comes down to fit. i hope this helps some. i know how much it sucks to get rejected from your top choices, but if you really dislike the program to which you've been accepted, you can always transfer!! sending lots of good vibes your way.