Film_Freak -- Thanks, ha yes that was the only username I could think of while staying 'anonymous' Your point about research is an excellent one -- to be honest that is somewhat of a new area for me (which is obviously why I was rejected). I did an honors thesis in undergrad but that was (ahem) over 15 years ago and on literature, not film. Plus -- not only do I have an MFA, but I've spent a 10+ career as a writer, filmmaker (and teacher) -- but not as a researcher. So... maybe it's really that 'simple' (and that difficult). Ok, so does this sound crazy...? I'm thinking of attending the state university so I can start taking classes again (and hopefully teaching/researching with a prof), have a better essay (maybe even miraculously get something more academic published), and *also* reapply next year. BTW Good luck getting the UCLA fellowship!!