Nah, I'm in my second year of grad school, and I've spent the last semester re-evaluating if this is really what I want to do. It's pretty easy to do when you're in astronomy, because it's not like my work has any real application. And because of a bad relationship with my (now former) research advisor, I was put into a position where I had to teach two classes, take 3 classes, do research, and study for my candidacy this semester. Oh, and I'm dating somebody who lives 3 hours away. You could say I'm frustrated and wondering if all of the sacrifice is really worth it to get a PhD.
I never applied to fellowships before this year, because I was sure I had no chance...I'm an above average but not stellar student/researcher and not particularly competitive I suppose. And this time, it seems that one of my reviewers (see bad relationship with former advisor above) wrote me a bad letter (according to one of my NSF reviewers), so I'm not actually all that heartbroken over it knowing that. Honestly, the only reason I applied is because I am trying to transfer (because of the two-body problem and because of wanting to do research with somebody not at my university), and I thought a fellowship would give me a bargaining chip if I got waitlisted. So, now I'm still waitlisted, just without a bargaining chip haha...I knew it was going to be tough, so this wasn't unexpected.
That was more of a rant than I meant it to be. You could say I needed to vent...at the interwebs haha