OP, not getting into grad school sucks. It just does. My best friend in college didn't get in anywhere her first time applying, and it was devastating. BUT she reapplied the next year and had some of the most amazing choices. Totally fair to feel shitty rn..but don't give up!
I'm in Hawaii so I'll be spending my evening going between refreshing email and forbidding myself to even *look* at email (1-6 EDT is 7pm-12am here lol, will def be awake)...