AbbyHunt

I started a new research-based program in experimental psychology last Sept. My current research areas do not overlap with what I've done before and I often feel myself not competent enough compared to my lab mates, even some undergraduate research assistants. My school is a top university in the States and the academic environment is excellent. I enjoy learning new knowledge and really want to eventually become a competent researcher. However, it is so hard for me to adjust o the new environment and show people that I can do it. I found sometimes my supervisor and other grad students don't really take my opinions seriously and I feel I'm a total loser. I work hard and do my job, but because of my anxiety, I just can't seem to articulate my ideas in a convincing way and I start to make stupid mistakes. I start questioning my ability and whether this is the right path for me. Please help me out and give my some tips.

Hi All, I'm a PhD student in psychology. My oral defense is scheduled in two weeks. However, I'm super super stressed. My supervisor has not been very helpful in terms of giving feedback throughout the past four years. I basically depended on myself to find relevant literature and develop my research ideas. I went to a couple of conferences and presented my projects. I received mostly positive feedback. However, when we submitted the manuscript based on my dissertation project, it was rejected four times. Reviewers' comments were super harsh. I cried multiple times and I believe I developed a physical condition because of this. My period suffered a lot. Anyway, I am not confident about my dissertation, but my internal and internal/external committee members said I did an excellent job, they did not even provide many comments in our meetings. They are very sure I will pass and I am a hard working and excellent student. However, I always doubt myself, especially when I'm preparing my oral defense right now. I am worried that my external examiner who is an expert in the field will ask me difficult questions that I can't handle. I am scared that he will dislike my design. The more I'm preparing now, the more flaws I can find in my dissertation, e.g., design and the layout of literature review. Although my supervisor has assured me I will be okay. I am still worried because I'm not sure if I should trust his judgement. He has been very nice to me and we had a good relationship overall. Could anyone please share your thoughts and experiences. Thank you soo much!