mbaumel22

Hi all, I applied to a whole bunch of biology PhD programs. I got interviews at two, but neither were places that I really wanted to go, and I went on one of the interviews and still haven't heard back so probably messed that up too. I got back two rejections and am waiting to hear from a bunch of others but I know if they were going to accept me I would have heard back by now. I know what people will tell me. That I can just work a job in the field and apply again next year. But I'll still be the same person next year and I feel like a complete failure. I don't know how to not feel like that. I really, really, don't. It's like... you put in all this time and energy and money and pour yourself into these applications and they take one look at you and decide you aren't good enough. To be honest I don't know why I thought I was. I'm just tired and it feels like I have no purpose when all of my friends who are graduating have concrete plans. Any advice on how to not feel like a complete idiot/failure for putting yourself out there and hoping you were good enough?