totallyfreaking out...thank you for expressing some of the same sentiments that I have had regarding these boards. I am re-applying to grad programs after a family issue forced me to withdraw from a great program. It's not all roses for some of us going through the process for either the first or second time. Between shady contact with professors, difficulty in gauging whether or not a professor will support you during the admissions process, lost GRE scores, LOR's, transcripts, etc. some of us will end up attending choices that we aren't satisfied with. It's especially frustrating when you try to contact either a program or a professor and cannot receive an answer. It's tough, the competition is cutthroat, and after awhile it gets everyone upset, angry, and frustrated.