HummusBaguette

Hey, it's not shameful AT ALL! It's so normal to have such thoughts and there is nothing to be ashamed of. My suggestion would be: 1. Try not to think about your second "failure" to come since apparently nothing has been determined yet and there is no evidence that you are going to be rejected again, given that you've worked harder to reshape your application and there's no reason you are going to do worse this time. 2. Try to redefine "failure". It might be helpful to think that only those that suit you will choose you, so being rejected is by no means a "failure"; instead, it just indicates that this program might not be a good fit for you. I'm an international applicant as well, and trust me we are all going through the same process of torture just as everybody on this thread. Wish you good luck! How about finding some distractions eg. sport?

Hey, a tiny update: I received my rejection today from UC Berkeley (email to check the portal). So I assume that they just started sending out offers as well! Those who apllied at Berkeley: Good luck!!

Agree with @postmodern. It's not that you are not good enough or anything. Wish you (and everybody struggling right now!) good luck and don't lose hope!

Wow, some topnotch programs! Wish you the best luck! I applied at Berkeley, UPenn, Davis and co., still haven't heard about anything. I'm kind of checking the result portal 1 million times a day........ eh!

Thank you for the thread! Waiting it out as well.... Are the schools doing things in a really slow pace this season? It seems that everyone is freaked out right now! !

Guys, age really does not matter I believe you are all brilliant souls! Have a look at this dude who earned his PhD in physics at the age of 89: https://www.upi.com/Odd_News/2021/11/11/physics-phd-89-years-old-Brown-University/7621636665251/