Hi there, I can feel you and I am in the exact same position as you. I've been in another country doing my master's for two years since the pandemic and I managed a lot of ups and downs in my academic life. Those experiences are definitely valuable but now I just want to go back home, stay in my comfort zone, and have a short break.
I know it's impossible to say "I CAN 100% FEEL YOU", but I'm with you! It is a hard time for all of us graduate students and especially for international students. I recognize your anxiety and it's okay to feel anxious and simply not okay. Also, regarding the programs, another friend has given you some great suggestions. Hope you can feel better and have some good news soon!