Boudicca

Hey everyone!
 
another loser here lol and HAHA - to think I was the one who came here with some insider knowledge!!
 
CONGRATS to @HeatherCT (thank you for the tips too!) @SSHRCDreams (you killed it!) and to @1Q84!!!!! And their spam folder  This is wonderful news for you all! Pour out a little liquor for us when you toast  
 
And to my comrades 
 
@fmlfmlfml@Boudicca
and @brert
Did all of you get the “merit review recommended you but we don’t have the money” line? I’m wondering if this is gaslighting or actually means anything. It’s SSHRC so I’ll bet on the former. 
 
My results are a lot like @Boudicca , same committee, and (humbly) I was pretty taken aback with how “meh” I was ranked.  
 
I have the urge to speculate but I also know how unhelpful it is. But I’m down to share some moral support with you all if you still want it 
 
Edited to add: I am working up the guts to tell my supervisor and referees the bad news. It feels crappy to disappoint the people who rallied for you. (But not as disappointing as it feels to tell my $$debt). 

Not Funded (Committee 3 - Anthropology/Archaeology) 37/84, 14.36/18, last funded award 14.99
I had 1 single author article and 1 co-authored (first author), 9 conference presentations, and substantial community collaboration.
Honestly I am more disappointed about what this means for the future of the project. Although I am now stressed about getting a non-SSHRC postdoc/job so I will be able to pay my bills, the SSHRC post-doc in my opinion doesn't offer enough financially for me to be truly upset about not getting this.
Congrats to those who were funded!