This is really hard, and the numbers are just stacked against everyone. It is early on so I hope we can hold out hope, but as a lot of people said it does possibly take a few times. I've already written a whole new collection of poems that I'm more excited to share, than I was in December, so if anything I hope everyone can see a light in this bleak process. I'm banking on applying next year, and I'm happy with how much it pushed me, and how much stronger I've already become, but boy was this all more brutal than I thought it would be.