Thanks for the replies guys. I'm just finishing up my declining e-mails to everyone. It feels like I'm breaking up with a million boyfriends or something.
Sorry about the use of retarded, never been actually called out on it before. I essentially wanted to express "I'm being stupid" (like not functioning logically, etc), but I felt the word retarded just expressed my feelings more. I guess lots of things about language are politically gray and it's hard to walk the right line. I mean, totally toned down language can also be very lifeless and boring. I remember in middle school when we couldn't use the word "sucks". And words like dumb, lame, stupid, idiotic, ghetto, etc all make fun of some group of people. Actually I'm having trouble thinking of words you can use to diss something that don't come from something politically incorrect. But yeah, I guess I'll try to be more careful...